my moodiness is getting more out of control when it's that time of the month. I just want to sulk and hide in the corner, feeding myself with self abasement, that i'm not worth anything good in this world. and who's to blame if not me, myself, and i? the never ending perfectionist who always feels soooo imperfect. trying so hard yet feel like nothing.

this is me, at times like this, i rlly feel that no one can actually GET my state of mind. enough crap. i just do not feel like meeting too many people. yeah, but all i have written in this post is true.

Currently listening to: shout

i think people shouldn't look around at people they think are having better fortune than themselves and self pity. after all you never know people face adversities in one way or another you may never discover in their lives.

never thought a time would come when i would make this decision. it turns out to be a very liberating decision indeed, who's afraid to live in poor mode for a while...

Baek Ji Young - Love is not a crime (OST Princess Ja Myung)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=abQvgupJnwA

Untouchable - My Boo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GeMdJSEyJE0

Kim Jong Wook (ft. Kang Min Kyung from Davichi) - If You Pretend

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rPi4_vOEPMM

from cinderella down to snow white and the evil mirror-obsessed queen?

Currently listening to: baek ji young - love is not a crime

maybe she was right...i didn't know what it's like to have difficulties in life. only now i knew some parts of it.

ku hanya ingin menemukan sukacita lagi untuk melanjutkan kehidupan di dunia ini.

apakah harta lebih penting? tentu tidak.

In Santa Monica, in the wintertime,
The lazy streets so undemanding
I walk into the crowd
In Santa Monica, you get your coffee from
The coolest places on the promenade
Where people dress just so
Beauty so unavoidable, everywhere you turn
It's there.
I sit and wonder what am I doing here?

But on the telephone line I am anyone
I am anything I want to be.
I could be a super model or Norman Mailer
And you wouldn't know the difference
Or would you?

In Santa Monica, all the people got modern names
Like Jake or Mandy
And modern bodies too
In Santa Monica, on the boulevard,
You'll have to dodge those in-line skaters
Or they'll knock you down
I never felt so lonely,
Never felt so out of place
I never wanted something more than this

But on the telephone line I am anyone
I am anything I want to be
I could be a super model or Norman Mailer
And you wouldn't know the difference
On the telephone line, I am any height
I am any age I want to be
I could be a caped crusader, or space invader
And you wouldn't know the difference
Or would you?

Or would you?

But on the telephone line I am anyone
I am anything I want to be
I could be a super model or Norman Mailer
And you wouldn't know the difference
On the telephone line, I am any height
I am any age I want to be
I could be a caped crusader, or space invader
And you wouldn't know the difference
Or would you?