lady gaga - just dance piano by ray mak

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uIcp3rY03Lc&feature=related

this guy is super cool

warning for spoilers. i, actually hate the movie. i'm the one who suggested us to watch it, and it's bad. it's highly disturbing emotionally and mentally. it's pure injustice. it's creepy without overcreepifying. it's torturing you inside, eating you up, and destroying you. it's counterattacking revenge. and it's just so not happening near you.

the feeling is indeed like being without a hp. cannot do anything just leave it to people to do something to you. it's like being zero-ed in the dependency department. I hate this feeling, but yeah it's there too in real life. it's complex. cos i know I just left my handphone at the cinema and i'm collecting it tommorow. the handphoneless feeling, which is similar but also totally not there yet. i hate how powerless women are depicted in the movie. it made me feel i know nothing about sexual harrassment at all. i also hate how cruel and heartless they made the gang shown to the audience, doing this kind of thing to their own blood and people. 

i guess, men (i mean human beings) never rlly like to be stripped down to nothing, having to depend on another entity 100% aside of himself. that is why i feel disturbed abt the movie. and this is why i am awake at this time of the night, typing this whole chunk of crap. ah, crap...i feel disturbed and cannot really sleep.

Currently feeling: disturbed

holidays...always a good time to check out new releases from the kpop scene.

Davichi - 8282 (Hurry Hurry)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pUzP8_2PYv8

2 AM - Friend's Confession

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=edU6xhUFS4s

Lee Seung Chul - There is no other person like that (OST Story Sadder than Sadness)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2bXbgWDsXgE

Currently listening to: Davichi - 8282

1 But now thus says the Lord,
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name, you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
and the flame shall not consume you.
3 For I am the Lord your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
I give Egypt as your ransom,
Cush and Seba in exchange for you.
4 Because you are precious in my eyes,
and honored, and I love you,
I give men in return for you,
peoples in exchange for your life.
5 Fear not, for I am with you;
I will bring your offspring from the east,
and from the west I will gather you.
6 I will say to the north, Give up,
and to the south, Do not withhold;
bring my sons from afar
and my daughters from the end of the earth,
7 everyone who is called by my name,
whom I created for my glory,
whom I formed and made.”

i'm going back may 7th - may 17th. it's confirmed already.

make sure you all don't miss me while i'm gone. *peace*

i hope i can clear my head from all the toxic substances and bitterness for this whole 1 year. rest well, daisy. you've done a good job.

Currently listening to: all saints - pure shores

1. accompanying letter dari perusahaan buat pr application gak keluar-keluar, tanpa alasan! what the hell, udah nunggu lama banget. udah ga boleh ganti tanggal lagi buat appointment sm ICA. sekarang apa yang harus anak gadis ini perbuat? sudah buntu otak ini rasanya.

2. suasana yang hostile di kantor, which is actually nothing, it is okay. we can get along again sooner or later.

3. bonus ditunda sampai mei (fine, kalopun gak dikasih so be it...udah biasa diperlakukan tidak adil.) dan nggak ada kenaikan gaji karena transfer. blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.

4. masalah orang-orang lain yang jadi masalahku juga.

when can i get my mind off all these things?!

sometimes we do the stupidest things in the gloomiest periods of our lives when those closest to us are not there for us. it's a fact of life.

needs someone who would be responsible for her when she's about to be deported from singapore. fortunately, her current situation does not exactly render her that powerless.

Currently listening to: baby can i hold you tonight

i am inviting you to help me live by what i know is right. i want you to challenge, to inquire, to question me so that my actions line up with my convictions. my heart will betray me. i need you to help me fight the fight of faith and resist sin. i need you. i need to be reminded of reality. i need protection. i need help to be and do what i believe. i need to share and multiply my joy.

Shout by Lee Seung Chul

I thought of you a lot, I grieved for you a lot
It was really hard, It was really painful
I saw you even with my eyes closed
And because I miss you so much, I shout out loud alone

I thought of you a lot, I grieved for you a lot
It was really hard, It was really painful
I miss you so much that my breath stops
When I miss you too much, I shout out loud alone

I must live with you in my heart
Pretending not to know you, pretending to have forgotten you

I shout for you, don't go

I say to you, don't go
I love you, I love you, I love you and only you

I shout for you, come back

I say to you, come back
I love you, I love you, I love you and only you
I shout out

I must live with you in my heart
Pretending not to know you, pretending to have forgotten you

I shout for you, don't go

I say to you, don't go
I love you, I love you, I love you and only you

I shout for you, come back
I say to you, come back
I love you, I love you, I love you and only you

I shout out

I shout for you, don't go
I say to you, don't go
I love you, I love you, I love you and only you

I shout for you, come back
I say to you, come back
I love you, I love you, I love you and only you

I shout out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1-1EMmIapDM

I can listen to this song over and over again, and yet not getting bored.

departures was seriously the best j movie i've ever watched up till now. cried from the middle till the end nonstop. it's true that girls better bring a bunch of tissue before watching this movie. it's heartwarmingly sentimental. in the most confucianism manner possible. treasure your loved ones before they depart. loved the cello piece played for his dad. it's absolutely beautiful.

there was this movie "252" that I'd like to watch too. it's titanic like, the day after tommorow like. seem to be quite intense and action-packed. yet got some asian movies warmth that western movies tend to lack of.

still waiting for akai ito. trailer looks good. but it seems to be similar to sky of love though. drugs, rape, suicide attempts, the usual stupid neverending jdrama conflicts =s not that realistic in other countries i have to say...

I dunno what makes me like this pairing. in season 1 they seemed to be very wrong. but yeah, i can never blame blair to be with chuck since nate doesn't really love her. i don't like nate at all, he's been in a relationship with like all the girls in the series practically speaking. with like no loyalty at all. at least with the chair couple, i can see them truly care about each other. they're there for each other in times of life crisis. though yea, i hate chuck's ficklemindedness A LOT. best thing to watch abt this couple is that they are sooo similar in terms of personality. i kind of see them playing the same game toward each other everytime. loved the "say the three words" game. it's a pity if they cant be together in the end.

still waiting for next ep of gossip girl, "Seder anything"...xoxo

i'm the epitome of it.

we could all use a little bit of neon pink to brighten up this gloomy and hopeless atmosphere of recession.

but to be honest with you, i can't wait for this year 2009 to end. this year has been an employer market, and it's been so tough for the employees to survive. so let's work hard...and wait for the sun to rise again.

"to have someone love you is very precious, so value it.."

I find it very true. Thanks to a friend for reminding me of this. It's easy to just find people who are attracted to you, but not people who love you for who you truly are.

Currently listening to: apologize

As for God, His way is perfect; The word of the LORD is proven; He is a shield to all who trust in Him.

is the OST of my current fave Jdrama Akai Ito (Red Thread).

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0q0PUv92Z8&feature=related

I love it, totally fits the romantic tone surrounding the drama, about 2 persons who are fated to be together even before they're born. I especially love the quote which is more or less say something like this:

"It is said that after a person is born, they will meet approximately 30000 people before they die. Of those, the number of people you'll meet and work with at school is 3000. And of those you'll intimately know 300. Among all those encounters, it's said God has arranged a special one for you. One made from before you're born. However, that bond of fate is invisible to everyone. And yet that unseen person in your destiny, is connected to you by a red string on your pinky. That's why I fell in love with you the moment we met.."

Though I don't believe in this red thread legend from China, but I think this kind of thing is romantic. Can watch it on mysoju.com at your own leisure time

P.S. I totally want to make my hair look like Mei's these days...gotta straighten again, can't wait =P

Currently listening to: 366 days

ISTJs generally have the following traits:

• Value tradition, security, and peaceful living (T)
• Will work long and hard to fulfill duties (very true)
• Can be depended on to follow through on tasks (sure as long as the tasks are logical enough to follow through)
• Loyal and faithful
• Stable, practical and down-to-earth (yep many people have said so)
• Family-minded
• Dislike doing things which don't make sense to them (haha yeah)
• Dislike abstract theory, unless they see the practical application (very true!!)
• Natural leaders (no, I don't think I make a great leader unless being forced into)
• Prefer to work alone, but work well in teams when necessary (yep)
• Extremely observant, they take in facts via their senses and store them internally (true)
• Vast, rich inner store of facts which they rely on to understand problems which they encounter in their lives  (yep)
• Profound respect for facts and concrete information (True!!)
• Make decisions objectively, applying logic and rational thinking (yes) 
• Dislike change, unless they are shown it's benefit in a concrete way (I guess it's true)
• Have strong opinions about the way things should be done
• Appreciate structured, orderly environments (not really)
• Have very high standards for their own behavior and the behavior of others (yes)
• Not naturally in-tune with other people's feelings
• Able to accomplish almost anything if they put their minds to it (usually true)
• Community minded "good citizens" (not really...)

ISTJs have one character trait which puts them at a definite advantage in terms of career success - Perserverance. An ISTJ can do almost anything that they have decided to do. However, there are areas in which they will function more happily and naturally. An ISTJ will do best in a career in which they can use their excellent organizational skills and their powers of concentration to create order and structure. ISTJs seem to fit extremely well into the Management and Executive layer of the corporate business world.

Note: Maybe it'd be better if I can further go into management role in the future, next 5-10 years? But i dunno let's see how...

all my life...I prayed for someone like you, and I thank God that I finally found you.

Currently listening to: brown eyes - already one year

many indonesian girls dream of becoming a tai tai one day. but it comes with a price tag of course...there are these criteria which u have to fulfill to become one:

1. you must be super pretty, or else you must be super pretty with make up on! the latter is preferable because of the potential glam factor.

2. have a great bod, reasonable height is important too.

3. you are younger than 30, preferably 27 and below.

4. you dont look for any other thing in a guy aside from their money, preferably with the brains too, but yeah you cant always get what u want. most usually this kind of guy is not good looking.

5. you have to obey every rule that he makes after your wedding.

so, i know i once had a dream of becoming a tai tai, ever since the suffering started in NUS, like many other girls I knew over there. but afterward i realize that it's much more worth it fighting for a life worth fighting for, for a higher good, just not for your own enjoyment and relaxation.

thinking about all these...since when did body image, facial features, and skin condition become the determining factors in a girl's self esteem? but no matter how vain it is, it is true in most young girls these days. you just have to admit there are these factors inside you, no matter how unimportant they are..at least you wouldn't want to meet so many people when you have acne all over your face if they're usually ain't there in the first place.