i'm helpless right now. home laptop is spoilt, hp is missing. i think i might have left in the plane cos i was so tired already and left it in the loose blue bag. then of course i had to place it underneath the front seat right. so yeah. i'm uncontactable thru phone. got any impt msgs for me, just email me at plue31285@gmail.com. thanks peeps.

“Grow in grace, and in the knowledge of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.”

2 Peter 3:18

“Grow in grace”—not in one grace only, but in all grace. Grow in that root-grace, faith. Believe the promises more firmly than you have done. Let faith increase in fulness, constancy, simplicity. Grow also in love. Ask that your love may become extended, more intense, more practical, influencing every thought, word, and deed. Grow likewise in humility. Seek to lie very low, and know more of your own nothingness. As you grow downward in humility, seek also to grow upward—having nearer approaches to God in prayer and more intimate fellowship with Jesus. May God the Holy Spirit enable you to “grow in the knowledge of our Lord and Saviour.” He who grows not in the knowledge of Jesus, refuses to be blessed. To know Him is “life eternal,” and to advance in the knowledge of Him is to increase in happiness. He who does not long to know more of Christ, knows nothing of Him yet. Whoever hath sipped this wine will thirst for more, for although Christ doth satisfy, yet it is such a satisfaction, that the appetite is not cloyed, but whetted. If you know the love of Jesus—as the hart panteth for the water-brooks, so will you pant after deeper draughts of His love. If you do not desire to know Him better, then you love Him not, for love always cries, “Nearer, nearer.” Absence from Christ is hell; but the presence of Jesus is heaven. Rest not then content without an increasing acquaintance with Jesus. Seek to know more of Him in his divine nature, in His human relationship, in His finished work, in His death, in His resurrection, in His present glorious intercession, and in His future royal advent. Abide hard by the Cross, and search the mystery of His wounds. An increase of love to Jesus, and a more perfect apprehension of His love to us is one of the best tests of growth in grace.

Supaya bentuknya lebih konkrit, let's list down whatever that has happened in 2008 from my perspective. mudah-mudahan masih inget apa saja yang terjadi =P me and my goldfish memory...

Januari 2008

Mulai lagi FYP setelah liburan Desember. Presentasi pertama FYP, it was good but not as good as my second time. Bukankah selalu demikian kejadiannya?

Februari 2008

Lanjut dengan FYP. Lagi apply2 kerja tp gak dipanggil2 buat interview.

Maret 2008

Dipanggil interview sm Exploit...and got it...immediately. Did i feel thankful for it? Thankful and yet doubtful of the nature of the work. Meanwhile, FYP got hazy.

April 2008

Sealed the contract with Exploit. Emang gajinya menggiurkan, tapi ada alasan2 lain juga selain itu untuk tidak ke company lainnya. Keteguhan hati mereka untuk merecruit saya memenangkan saya ke sisi mereka, sm halnya dengan saat saya memenangkan hati si penyihir untuk membiarkan saya bekerja di sana sampai sekarang. Lanjutin FYP sampe beres dan bnyk banget resultsnya. It was pure satisfaction. It was exam season and I studied together wif Ardi almost everyday =P

May 2008

It was camp time. Got mixed feelings. But overall it was a great camp, for all. Then May 17th, was it divine intervention? God knows. And I went back Indo.

June 2008

Chat with Ardi like almost everyday in Indo. I'm starting to wonder whether I care less about our relationship now. I need to go back there again. Then went to Korea. Still remember the songs played there almost everywhere: Replay by Shinee, So Hot by Wonder Girls, Only Look at Me by Taeyang. Kpop was still good back then. It was a beautiful experience and a mindopener about Koreans and how they really are in reality. Some are nice and yet many are very rude and impatient. I bet I'm going to get even more impatient if I go and live there. There was even a married tour guide who kept a close watch over me. That was freakin scary.

July 2008

Went for commencement. Finally got my 2nd upper degree, so what? Started working on the 14th. Everything was still smooth until here. Got in a relationship on the 18th. Mixed up feelings. I was still too used to my singleness.

August 2008

I did change after getting my first pay at the end of the month. We went to shoot a video clip for our ISCF welcome tea. Wiwin was so damn funny. Got to know my AKTBs. Started serving in the NGM. NTU people are so foreign to me. I still don't feel comfortable around them until now. I don't know why. No old blanket comfort, definitely no.

September 2008

Pindah rumah. Thank God for the convenient location. I love Ghim Moh. I feel I wouldn't mind staying here forever though I can't la. Struggles started coming in at work. Gak bs gak mikirin itu tiap hari.

October 2008

Struggle got worse. Bangunan yang uda aku bikin selama ini hancur berkeping-keping, dihancurkan oleh realita yang ada. Ada AKTB yang quit KTB karena suatu alasan tertentu. I sincerely hope I still can pray for her at least. Eventhough yea, I can't commit to care about her and ask her how she is doing regularly. I still hope to do so every now and then.

November 2008

Things get better again. Thank God finally he relieved me from the tension. Situasi di tempat kerja membaik, orang-orang lebih bisa mengampuni satu sama lain. Relationship also stabilized by now.

Desember 2008

It was a sleepy month. I got my birthday. It was really-really sederhana. Was I happy? No, I couldn't recall such feelings. But truthfully, I should be thankful for it. Di tempat kerja semuanya serba lambat. Orang-orang pada ambil cuti. Can you see my Bahasa is getting worse now? It takes me quite some time to make a sentence in Bahasa. Oh no. Was getting homesick. Thank God for a few friends in Christ which were still with me around Christmas. Couldn't attend a best friend's engagement in Indo. Spent lots of money this month. Then the NREC at the end of the year. It was no doubt a blessed experience, eventhough it was physically tiring and emotionally exhaustive. With that retreat (eh, excuse me?! what retreat?!), I ended the year 2008.

Konklusi

Di tahun 2008 diperhadapkan pada masa di mana aku harus berubah dari seorang mahasiswa yang cuek dan tidak bisa mandiri, menjadi seorang pekerja yang dipaksa mandiri dan harus bisa menyelesaikan persoalan-persoalannya dengan cara apapun juga. Ada juga sedikit masa harus memikirkan rencana masa depan secara short term. Ada berbagai rasa di tahun 2008 ini, untuk semuanya I owed God thankfulness.

Akhirnya sadar bahwa akar dari masalah2 yang aku hadapi selama ini adalah keadaan psikologi yang sudah rusak oleh dosa.

1. mentalitas serba instan. ketidaksabaran cenderung membuahkan keputusan yang mudah disesali di kemudian hari.

2. mentalitas ingin sembunyi di balik layar, tidak mau under the spotlight. why am i like this? i know why. dari sejak kecil sering dihina, dianggap invisible. yah, being invisible is my comfort zone. menghindarkan diri dari celaan dan penghinaan. harus lebih berani untuk mencoba hal-hal baru.

3. ungratefulness to God, sulk, yang rasanya gak perlu didefine lagi.

4. escapism. i run away from problems. i run away from people, from my stalkers, from people I dislike immediately after I saw them. i think i'm a potential runaway bride also. not literally running with those sports shoes, but you get what I mean. i hope this won't happen in the future.

5. keadaan sebagai orang kristen yang menyedihkan dan tidak menghidupi imannya. tidak stand up for Tuhan dan iman sendiri di tengah orang-orang tidak percaya. aku rasa hanya orang-orang yang benar-benar tidak ada saudara seiman di lingkungan kerja mereka bisa mengerti keadaan yang sulit ini. sangat mudah ketika engkau berada di tengah-tengah saudara seiman engkau membela Tuhanmu, tapi tidak ketika engkau benar-benar menjadi domba di sarang serigala. finally i realized it's utmost satisfaction to please God and not men, when they're just unreconcilable.

6. ketidakpuasan terhadap segala-galanya secara kronis sepanjang tahun. I dunno since when did this tendency come to me, but it's so real. i'm unsatisfied and unhappy almost every day. bisa menjadi sesuatu yang baik bila memicu semangat untuk memperbaiki diri, tapi tidak bila terus menerus hanya untuk mencela dan mengkritik orang lain.

7. menjadi orang kristen yang seolah-olah mengobral anugerah Tuhan kepada orang-orang yang tidak percaya. padahal kesempatan tidak selalu datang tidak ada batasnya. lebih menekankan kasih Tuhan daripada kekudusan Tuhan kepada orang-orang tidak percaya. Akhirnya di antara mereka sendiri, Tuhan menjadi suatu pribadi yang mengemis kepada mereka agar Ia boleh masuk ke dalam hati mereka. Padahal tidak demikian kenyataannya.

Like being hit by a gun
I really don't have any mentality
Because only laughter comes out
I just smiled
I just smiled
I just...

While smiling hopelessly, I asked for only one
Why did we break up
How could we break up
How could we break up
How...

** CHORUS
In my punctured heart, our memories flow ... they over flow
Even though I'm trying to hold on, even though I block off my heart
They slip through my fingers

Even though my heart is cold, it doesn't seem like it hurts
How can you do that? Please heal me.
At this rate, my heart will break completely
My punctured heart
**

Already, my tears flow without me knowing
I hate being like this but...
I really hate it but...
I really...

You stand up and I follow
Aimlessly I followed
You're running away, from behind you
From behind you
I cried out

** CHORUS

Like being hit by a gun, really
My heart hurts a lot
Although I hurt like this
Although I hurt like this
It's weird how I can live

How can I forget you?
I don't know how to do that, I don't know
My heart is pierced
It can't be full
It hurts as much as death
Like being hit by a gun

credits: CHARM* at soompi (:

i think i'm going to fall sick soon. too tired living from day to day.

WARNING SPOILERS BELOW

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The movie began with our heroine, G, the teenage boys and girls playing a game in the yard. We could see that the young Charles Grey had already had an eye on G since then. Unfortunately, here came our villain, the cold antisocial and cruel Duke of Devonshire. By the time the Duke and our heroine entered the mansion (their house), the villain caused me annoyance already. by playing with his stupid dalmations, by the "just-do-duty" attitude with G, and then of course with all the affairs started rolling in. He's truly a selfish bastard. By the time he said he wanted to keep G's best friend, Bess in the house as his mistress, I was as pissed as G I wished  her to be with Charles Grey instead. I am sorry but it was truly a breath of fresh air to the audience when Charles Grey came to the screen to save our heroine (supposedly). She just hoped to get married to a man who loves her, but in reality she never could get it. I'm not too sure if G really loved Grey, I guess her love for the children surpassed that for him. I think he loved her very much though...too bad they couldn't be together. He's exactly whom she needed so badly. A man who loved her unconditionally. Whom she can communicate with naturally, unlike the antisocial duke, who's totally her opposite and was just plain too old for her. It's based on a true story though...which doesn't always have the sweet happy ending.

P.S. It's like so proven that the saying "No need to meet so many times, people just know it automatically when it's the one." is just much bullshit.

“I have yet to speak on God’s behalf.”

Job 36:2

WE ought not to court publicity for our virtue, or notoriety for our zeal; but, at the same time, it is a sin to be always seeking to hide that which God has bestowed upon us for the good of others. A Christian is not to be a village in a valley, but “a city set upon a hill;” he is not to be a candle under a bushel, but a candle in a candlestick, giving light to all. Retirement may be lovely in its season, and to hide one’s self is doubtless modest, but the hiding of Christ in us can never be justified, and the keeping back of truth which is precious to ourselves, is a sin against others and an offence against God. If you are of a nervous temperament and of retiring disposition, take care that you do not too much indulge this trembling propensity, lest you should be useless to the church. Seek in the name of Him who was not ashamed of you to do some little violence to your feelings, and tell to others what Christ has told to you. If thou canst not speak with trumpet tongue, use the still, small voice. If the pulpit must not be thy tribune, if the press may not carry on its wings thy words, yet say with Peter and John, “Silver and gold have I none; but such as I have give I thee.” By Sychar’s well talk to the Samaritan woman, if thou canst not on the mountain preach a sermon; utter the praises of Jesus in the house, if not in the temple; in the field, if not upon the exchange; in the midst of thine own household, if thou canst not in the midst of the great family of man. From the hidden springs within let sweetly flowing rivulets of testimony flow forth, giving drink to every passer by. Hide not thy talent; trade with it; and thou shalt bring in good interest to thy Lord and Master. To speak for God will be refreshing to ourselves, cheering to saints, useful to sinners, and honoring to the Saviour. Dumb children are an affliction to their parents. Lord, unloose all Thy children’s tongue.

i hate the winter season. when everything slows down, hearts cool down, everyone are just plain too tired to work or say anything anymore. heck i even hate winter fashion some more, it's irrelevant in the tropics right? i hate winter eventhough my bday is in that season.

i shall be waiting for february. there will be valentine. there will be the next ngm. somebody will be laughing if he/she reads this. then there will be previews of spring/summer fashion again. there will be nicer dramas, hopefully. and i also hope for a good change on this year's so loudly announced recession. enough talking about it, world. you're not making it any easier for people by talking about it in that manner. not in the appropriate manner, but in strait times manner. i hate it. i hate it a lot. it's like there's no hope at all this year, while we still have 12 more months to go.

c'mon people. we still can work even in this year. the year of the ox. go ox-ey, go! not that i believe in the zodiacs, just saying it as one born in an ox year.

Currently listening to: sugarcult - memory (acoustic)

“Jehoshaphat made ships of Tharshish to go to Ophir for gold: but they went not; for the ships were broken at Ezion-geber”

1 Kings 22:48

SOLOMON’s ships had returned in safety, but Jehoshaphat’s vessels never reached the land of gold. Providence prospers one, and frustrates the desires of another, in the same business and at the same spot, yet the Great Ruler is as good and wise at one time as another. May we have grace today, in the remembrance of this text, to bless the Lord for ships broken at Ezion-geber, as well as for vessels freighted with temporal blessings; let us not envy the more successful, nor murmur at our losses as though we were singularly and specially tried. Like Jehoshaphat, we may be precious in the Lord’s sight, although our schemes end in disappointment.

The secret cause of Jehoshaphat’s loss is well worthy of notice, for it is the root of very much of the suffering of the Lord’s people; it was his alliance with a sinful family, his fellowship with sinners. In 2 Ch. 20:37, we are told that the Lord sent a prophet to declare, “Because thou hast joined thyself with Ahaziah, the Lord hath broken thy works.” This was a fatherly chastisement, which appears to have been blest to him; for in the verse which succeeds our morning’s text we find him refusing to allow his servants to sail in the same vessels with those of the wicked king. Would to God that Jehoshaphat’s experience might be a warning to the rest of the Lord’s people, to avoid being unequally yoked together with unbelievers! A life of misery is usually the lot of those who are united in marriage, or in any other way of their own choosing, with the men of the world. O for such love to Jesus that, like Him, we may be holy, harmless, undefiled, and separate from sinners; for if it be not so with us, we may expect to hear it often said, “The Lord hath broken thy works.”

I feel like the lazy-bum Hong Gil Dong, not the really cool one. I'm no hero. I'm so sorry. I'm so useless and cause nothing but havoc to my people.

When can I be a hero?

Our love has changed
It's not the same
And the only way to say it
Is say it
It's better
I can't conceal
This way I feel
For all the times we've spent together
Forever
Just gets better

See what I'm trying to say is
You make things
Better
And no matter what the day is
With you here
It's better

I stand by you
If you stand by me
I think it's time that I reveal it
'Cause I believe it
It's better

See what I'm trying to say is
You make things
Better
And no matter what the day is
If you're here
It's better

Oh the more I talk to you
I fall in love with
Everything you do
O-oh

See what I'm trying to say is
You make things
Better
And no matter what the day is
With you here
It's better

Our love has changed
It's not the same
And the only way to say it is say it
It's better

Currently listening to: boyzone - better

everytime i want to take mandarin lessons I'm always tempted to study korean instead...i can't deny it, i'm oh so always in love with the language. it's the cutest and sexiest language in the world...what's going on with me?

This is a story about a girl named Lucky…


Early morning
She wakes up
With a knock, knock, knock on the door

It's time for makeup
Perfect smile
It's who they're all waiting for

They go,isn't she lovely
This Hollywood girl


And they say,
she's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking
If there is nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night.

Lost in an image, in a dream
But there's no one there to wake her up!
And the world is spinning, and she keeps on winning
But tell me what happens when it stops?
And they go,
"Isn't she lovely, this Hollywood girl?"


Chorus
And they say she's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking
If there is nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night

Ay-ay-yeah-eh-eh-yeah

"Best actress, and the winner is…Lucky!"

Ay-ay-yeah-eh-eh-yeah

"I'm Roger Johnson for Pop News standing outside the arena waiting for Lucky"
"Oh my god…here she comes!"

Isn't she lucky, this Hollywood girl?

She is so lucky
But why does she cry?
If there's nothing
missing in her life
Why do these tears come at night

Chorus
And they say she's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking
If there is nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night

she's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking
If there is nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night

don't let your feelings get above your rational thinking...it almost always leads to disastrous times.

i will stay here still. i won't move.

1. Faith in God that goes beyond any experience of bitterness with God

2. Freedom from the security of home and family and this life

3. Courage to venture into the strange and the unknown

4. Radical commitment to the relationships which God has placed in her life

p.s. actually i woke up with this nasty headache and stuffy nose this morning, couldn't go back to sleep, so I tried listening to John Piper's sermon on Ruth chapter 1. Not so surprisingly, I felt very blessed with the decision to listen to this sermon.

Currently feeling: blessed

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah, you PMS like a bitch
I would know

And you always think
Always speak cryptically
I should know
That you're no good for me

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be just like twins, so in sync
The same energy now's a dead battery
Used to laugh 'bout nothing
Now you're plain boring
I should know
That you're not gonna change

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bipolar
Stuck on a rollercoaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down, down, down, down...

p.s. how true...girls, stay away from guys who are like that...

boy, be a man. it's only about time.

i have gift-love, some amount of...but not need-love. something is wrong with me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HC_vxdxmMsc

quite a movie I'd like to watch when it comes out...

I think Rainie Yang is one of the best singers to sing OSTs. I love her singing this kind of ballads, just like last time's "Ai Mei" from OST Devil Beside You. Go Rainie! Here's the MV:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZkqVyyjcYnA

I have always walked alone
A Crossroad, living by myself
But this time you said you will take me away, to some corner, just you and me

Like the mystery of the soil grasping the flower tightly
Like the turbulence of the sky tangling with the rain
Behind you, counting steps, every rearview, every scene
I had dreams of them

Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

Everytime I will go far away by myself
Keeping my silence, not creasing my forehead
But this time you said let’s go together
Being gentle with each other from now on.


Like the mystery of the soil grasping the flower tightly
Like the turbulence of the sky tangling with the rain
Behind you, counting steps, every rearview, every scene
I had dreams of them

Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

White Horse glides through, an encomposing darkness, the tide invading, wave surging
solidify on the coast (into something black)
Wild rose pointing toward the praire, the mailman bringing rainbows
Carved into my heart, pulsing


Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will becomes bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
Take me away.

Currently listening to: take me away

Cos I must look gorgeous, and of course you have to look good too.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xzVgbZE22Jk

i'm so going to watch this much-anticipated jack neo movie. just in time to cure this coldness inside...will it work?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ibarpPRNvA

What's left of us is to sit by the shore,
Watch her leave further and further.
As the white star shines above the sea,
The sandy beach seems more distant.

But where did her heart go?
We're both so helpless,
Whose hand will lead her to come back?

Does she know?
Don't think so,
We fell in love with the same regret,
I suddenly realized at that time,
Why we make things difficult for each other.
Tell me she knows,
I don't think so,
We both don't deserve her love,
We cannot stop the pain from coming,
But we learned to move on.

Between two friends, the one I love
Is impossible to have in the future,
Sometimes the ending still gave us a lot of surprises, yeah...
She finally made her decision, with a slight smile
Who do we blame, (who is wrong?) we both (we both) failed.

Does she know (She knows)
Don’t think so (I know)
We fell in love with the same regret,
I suddenly realized at that time,
Why we make things difficult for each other.
Tell me she knows,
I don't think so
We both don't deserve her love,
We cannot stop the pain from coming,
But we learned to move on.

Does she know,
Don’t think so
We fell in love the same regret
I suddenly realized at that time,
Why we make things difficult for each other.
Tell me she knows,
'Cause I don't think so
We both don't deserve her love,
We cannot stop the pain from coming,
But we learned to move on.

Indo

1. Derby - Gelora Asmara

2. Dewiq - Eh Kok Gitu Sih

3. Gita Gutawa - Tak Perlu Keliling Dunia

4. Hijau Daun - Cobalah

5. Potret - Mungkin

6.  ST12 - Cari Pacar Lagi

7. ST12 - Saat Terakhir

8. Tarzan - Obat Penawar Rindu

9. The Vanillas - Mati Rasa

10. Yovie Nuno - Janji Suci

11. Yovie Nuno - Bunga Jiwaku

Korean

1. SNSD - Gee

2. Baek Ji Young - Like Being Hit by a Bullet

3. Brown Eyes - Already One Year (p.s. past hits are not necessarily bad)

4. Gavy NJ - A Love Story

English

1. Jonas Brothers - Love Bug

2. Katy Perry - Hot n Cold

Chinese

1. Will Pan - Xia Ri Feng

2. Will Pan & Blue J - Tong Yi Ge Yi Han

3. Rainie Yang - Dai Wo Zou

4. Wang Lee Hom - Spring Rain Washes Away the Sun

5. Wang Lee Hom - Heartbeat

Currently listening to: tong yi ge yi han

“We will remember Thy love more than wine.”

Song of Solomon 1:4

JESUS will not let His people forget His love. If all the love they have enjoyed should be forgotten, He will visit them with fresh love. “Do you forget My cross?” says He, “I will cause you to remember it; for at My table I will manifest Myself anew to you. Do you forget what I did for you in the council-chamber of eternity? I will remind you of it, for you shall need a counsellor, and shall find Me ready at your call.” Mothers do not let their children forget them. If the boy has gone to Australia, and does not write home, his mother writes,“Has John forgotten his mother?” Then there comes back a sweet epistle, which proves that the gentle reminder was not in vain. So is it with Jesus. "He says to us, “Remember Me,” and our response is, “We will remember Thy love.” We will remember Thy love and its matchless history. It is ancient as the glory which Thou hadst with the Father before the world was. We remember, O Jesus, Thine eternal love when Thou didst become our Surety, and espouse us as Thy betrothed. We remember the love which suggested the sacrifice of Thyself, the love which, until the fulness of time, mused over that sacrifice, and longed for the hour whereof in the volume of the book it was written of Thee, “Lo, I come.” We remember Thy love, O Jesus! as it was manifest to us in Thy holy life, from the manger of Bethlehem to the garden of Gethsemane. We track Thee from the cradle to the grave,—for every word and deed of Thine was love,—and we rejoice in Thy love, which death did not exhaust; Thy love which shone resplendent in Thy resurrection. We remember that burning fire of love which will never let Thee hold Thy peace until Thy chosen ones be all safely housed, until Zion be glorified, and Jerusalem settled on her everlasting foundations of light and love in heaven.

I still can't believe that my best friend is finally getting married, and it's coming oh-so-soon, alamak...=D I certainly hope for their happiness, may God strengthen them in whatever they're going to face ahead together in Christ =)

and I'm actually a small part in the plot of making this thing happen...oh-boy isn't my heart fluttering?

 

 

and btw...inkheart sucks.

Currently listening to: Gavy NJ - A Love Story

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
River flows in you - Yiruma

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
zza zza la - as one (like this one )

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
like being hit by a bullet - baek ji young (0_o;

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Everything - Big Bang

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Last Farewell - Big Bang (yeah baby...)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Dai Wo Zou - Rainie Yang

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Love Me - Yiruma

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Obat penawar rindu - Tarzan boys

WHAT IS 2+2?
Spring rain washed over the sun - Wang lee hom

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Crush - David Archuleta (no way my bestie is a girl)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Honeymoon - Yurisangja (=p)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Invisible person - Son Dam Bi (yea often feel that way...)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Leavin - Jesse Mccartney

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Cari pacar lagi - ST12 (hahaha gawat2)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Tak perlu keliling dunia - Gita Gutawa (cool, though not danceable to)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Always be my baby - David cook (=))

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Day by day - Big bang (what is this? lab work maybe)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
a love story - gavy nj

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
my love - eun ji won (sorry too many love songs in my hd friends)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Mati rasa - the vanillas

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Forever - Chris brown

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
nobody - wondergirls

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
apologize - onerepublic

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
too much - crown j ft seo in young (too much glucose? cholesterol?)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
today more than yesterday - kim jong kook (definitely a wedding song, but surely i don't get married today =p)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
wait there - yiruma

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
janji suci - yovie n the nunos

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
bleeding love - leona lewis

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
one - epik high ft ji sun

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
kiss the rain - yiruma

Currently listening to: kiss the rain - yiruma