right now i'm even more and more convinced that the saying is true. i cannot imagine what happens when people are too tired and sleepy to pray everytime...too tired to meditate on the Words of God. They won't have a strong spirit surely. Bottomline, get enough sleep and nutrition la, at least. don't maintain a sedentary lifestyle. more importantly, PRIORITIZE. which is always a difficult thing when you've got demands to meet up soooo many people.

I learned about professionalism, how to love the place where you work in from Bambino! Strange, isn't it?

"Guys who don't focus on the work in front of them don't have the right to talk about their dreams." - Yonamine

 5 Those who sow in tears
         Shall reap in joy.
 6 He who continually goes forth weeping,
         Bearing seed for sowing,
         Shall doubtless come again with rejoicing,
         Bringing his sheaves with him.

are all artisans escapist in their nature, as in they've worlds of their own to create whatever they like in their minds?

Robot maker, Kronos Heaven, finally develops "Night Tenjo", the perfect male humanoid programmed to be devoted and completely loyal to his lover. The company chooses temp worker Izawa Riko to take part in a 5-day free trial. At first, Riko only sees Night as a household appliance. But when she finds out how deep Night's devotion to herself is, Riko finds herself falling in love with him. Joining the love triangle is Asamoto Soshi, a distinguished young executive at her company who has feelings for her. --Fuji TV

for a little preview,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gl1oOAJaLG8

and trailer:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yj9jbq6OWqQ&feature=related

If I were to make a MV for the drama, I'd choose "Leavin" by Jesse Mccartney as the BGM

Why don't you tell him that I'm leavin' never looking back again
You found somebody who does it better than he can
No more making you cry
No more them gray skies
Girl we flying on a g-5, g-5
And we're leavin' never looking back again
So call your shawty you tell him you found a new man
The one who's so so fly
The one to keep you high
Have you singing all night, like that

probably by now only one person in the world has concerns for my relationship with God, if not zero. nobody knows...do i even care? been like this for quite sometime and to be honest, I also don't know what to do about it anymore. probably i'll just hang in there...until something hits me hard in the head, then probably i'll know where my mistake is and move on. as if i don't know. i'm just behaving like the dark knight who just choose to go the same way as everybody else. yes, the bad guys. Cos, I have lost some of my hope of keeping life as an upright person. Has it ever been easy to always do the right thing at **** when you're not even sure where your career is heading? Has it ever been easy to be content in this situation...? I unconsciously worry, and I don't know what to do with the unconscious worry, fear, and rage that is all the time going on inside my head. as if i know how to control unconscious patterns in my head.

another point. i don't believe that God throws away any of his prodigal sons/daughters. God chastises them, yes, but let them on and on corrupting themselves until they go totally morally bankrupt? I doubt that His love doesn't cover that part. So...actually...I still have hope, right God?

“His place of defence shall be the munitions of rocks: bread shall be given him; his waters shall be sure.”

Isaiah 33:16

Do you doubt, O Christian, do you doubt as to whether God will fulfil his promise? Shall the munitions of rock be carried by storm? Shall the storehouses of heaven fail? Do you think that your heavenly Father, though he knoweth that you have need of food and raiment, will yet forget you? When not a sparrow falls to the ground without your Father, and the very hairs of your head are all numbered, will you mistrust and doubt him? Perhaps your affliction will continue upon you till you dare to trust your God, and then it shall end. Full many there be who have been tried and sore vexed till at last they have been driven in sheer desperation to exercise faith in God, and the moment of their faith has been the instant of their deliverance; they have seen whether God would keep his promise or not. Oh, I pray you, doubt him no longer! Please not Satan, and vex not yourself by indulging any more those hard thoughts of God. Think it not a light matter to doubt Jehovah. Remember, it is a sin; and not a little sin either, but in the highest degree criminal. The angels never doubted him, nor the devils either: we alone, out of all the beings that God has fashioned, dishonor him by unbelief, and tarnish his honor by mistrust. Shame upon us for this! Our God does not deserve to be so basely suspected; in our past life we have proved him to be true and faithful to his word, and with so many instances of his love and of his kindness as we have received, and are daily receiving, at his hands, it is base and inexcusable that we suffer a doubt to sojourn within our heart. May we henceforth wage constant war against doubts of our God—enemies to our peace and to his honor; and with an unstaggering faith believe that what he has promised he will also perform. “Lord, I believe, help thou mine unbelief.”

i sincerely hope that she is fine. even if it's really something serious, God strengthens her.

1. i've learned how to love others from non believers. genuinely care for others. be sensitive to their feelings and needs. according to bambino!, that is love. not just to push our feelings to them.

2. i've learned humility once again.

3. i've learned how to stay strong in the economic crisis.

4. i've learned to find topics for conversations aside from theology and dramas.

5. i've learned to love what i'm doing.

6. i've learned to think first before doing something.

7. i've learned to forsake myself and be happy for others even when i'm not that happy at that certain time.

8. i've learned to trust God...

9. i've learned cooking, yes of course.

10. i've learned to accept others' weaknesses, though maybe not all.

11. i've learned to be honest despite circumstances

12. i've learned to enjoy the present, and not to worry for nothing about the future.

13. i've learned how to be happier in life.

in the world where there is no right and wrong, this gray world.

Currently listening to: JM - Leavin

Psalm 143 (New American Standard Bible)

everyone is hurt, stop telling each other to change. everybody please shut up.

if you're too much to handle for her, she will tell you all those nasty truths about yourself.

if she's cool that means she's really cool. there's nothing else.

don't prompt her to discuss about her problems at **** or else she'll bombard you with all her complaints.

she would really appreciate if others can take the effort to at least understand a little bit her situation at ****.

if she's patient with you, don't take it for granted. appreciate that. or else you know what's going to happen next.

and yes, her first priority after God is still work. that is if she's still normal. why? reason is because she still doesn't have any family to take care of in singapore.

if you want to talk, talk it out outside office hours.

these are facts that she admits as true.

why didn't i think about it earlier...i should have been smarter. let's try those tommorow =) =) full of hope, happily extinguishable hope.

sometimes she feels that she's trapped in this whole new adult world while still having this undergrad mentality.

the hope was extinguised by a newly revealed truth. then the girls at **** were stalking some guys on facebook. i guess it's true that we don't meet as many new girls/guys anymore after our undergrad life is over. then i realize only that my time is over, and his isn't. coming soon though.

one's personality can be reflected through his/her cooking. i find my own cooking has a very good first impression. i always cut my food into biteable size too. however, i don't like the aftertaste, feels not that healthy...another friend got a not very good first impression. her cooking is quite bland, however the aftertaste is great. it's like you have eaten a very non-oily food with less salt and all those. i start to wonder whether people think of us that way too. Will people get sick of me at the end, after knowing me for so long?

not a good girl with all the good influences...

do all parents want their daughters to marry a rich guy? doesn't it sound like another chasing after the wind?

was so much chubbier then. reduced quality of life? still thinking.

Oo there something about just something about the way she moved
I cant figure it out, there's something about her (about her)
Say oo there something about,
What kinda women wants you but you dont need you
Hey, i cant figure it out, there's something about her
Cuz she walk like the boss, talk like the boss
Manicured nalis, just like the pedicured roll?
She's fly effortlessly
Cuz she move like a boss, do add a boss
Do, she got me thinking about getting involved
thats the kinda girl i need

She got her own thing
That why i love her
Miss independent
Wont you come and spend a little time
She got her own thing
That why i love her
Miss independent
Love the way you shine
Miss independent

Oo there's something about that a woman that can do for herself
I look at her and it makes me proud, there's something about her
there somehting oo so sexy about the kinda women that dont even need my help
She ses she got it,she got it, no doubt, theres something about her
Cuz she work like the boss, play like the boss
Car and a crib, she about to pay em both off
And her bills are paid on time
She made for a boss, Solely a boss,
Everything like, she telling em to get lost
Thats the girl that on my mind

She got her own thing
That why i love her
Miss independent
Wont you come and spend a little time
She got her own thing
That why i love her
Miss independent
Love the way you shine
Miss independent

Her favourite thing, is to say dont worry i got it
And everything she got, best believe she bought it
She gunna steal my heart, aint no doubt about it,
Girl your everything i need, said your everything i need

She got her own thing
That why i love her
Miss independent
Wont you come and spend a little time
She got her own thing
That why i love her
Miss independent
Love the way you shine
Miss independent
Thats why i love her

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G9jhuWUgT_s

all the junk food, jalan-jalan malam, late night sodas, late night browsings, late night random readings have taken their toll. not feeling well today. feel so dizzy i'm fainting. need zzz. asap.

and what if as you grow older, you become more like a serpent instead of more like a dove? this is a sad reality...but we all should strive to be wiser and more sincere from day to day.

personally, i feel that i'm losing the aspect of the dove more and more each day.

I don't want to marry for money, for financial security (cos money does have wings to fly wherever it wants), just bcos I think the guy is good enough to marry, or just for fun. all these reasons are not good enough for me, not good enough to get stuck with something for a long long time while on earth. I must must have the conviction in making serious decisions such as further studies, work, marriage, ministry, etc etc.

I love being her, cos she's got her own style.  just in the same manner as everyone else who does. i hate being confined in a rigid environment structured by local cultural traditions, which are not universal. just accept the reality if her style is not like yours nor like the majority of girls out there in your own environment. just accept that she's who she is.

as far as she's not going bald, i will support her, and any other woman out there. having their own opinions, their own responses to the spirit and crisis of the ages, reflected in their style.

not like i want to be like that woman. she sucks.

sometimes it feels like floating in the middle of the deep and wide sea. uncertain and has no short term hope. that is the working life i know.

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside..
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..

[Chorus]
Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross your mind
When we're hangin spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last,
Last forever, forever

[Chorus]

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..

Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away x5

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e8phK_YIRNs

Currently listening to: this song la

You and me, all alone girl
What’s going on?
Will you tell me what’s wrong?
It’s like you’re locked up
in your own world
Oh, with nothin’ to say

You keep me guessing,
But I see in your eyes
He made you promises,
But gave you lies
You’re shutting down
Because you’re so sure
That I’ll be another mistake

I know that he left you in pieces
You know that I won’t be that way
I’m not gonna treat you like he did
Oh, whatever it takes
You think history is repeated
You keep on pushing me away
Oh, but nothing’s gonna change
Waiting for yesterday

Is it worth it any longer?
So scared of falling again.
But yesterday can make it stronger
So why do you feel alone?
You know I love you better
than he ever did
And this could be, all you ever needed
Hold onto me and just remember
Oh, no, never let go

I know that he left you in pieces
You know that I won’t be that way
I’m not gonna treat you like he did
Oh, whatever it takes
You think history is repeated
You keep on pushing me away
Oh, but nothing’s gonna change
Waiting for yesterday

I’m the one for you tonight
I’m the one for you forever
If it takes a little time,
Whatever it takes, whatever it takes
I’m the one for you tonight,
I’m the one for you forever
If it takes a little time
Whatever it takes, whatever it takes

I know that he left you in pieces
You know that I won’t be that way
I’m not gonna treat you like he did
Oh, whatever it takes
You think history is repeated
You keep on pushing me away
Oh, but nothing’s gonna change
Waiting for yesterday

I know that he left you in pieces
You know that I won’t be that way
I’m not gonna treat you like he did
Oh, whatever it takes
You think history is repeated
You keep on pushing me away
Oh, but nothing’s gonna change
Waiting for yesterday

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P670wm_xExk&feature=related

apparently, this new hairstyle is quite similar to that of Seo In Young from We Got Married...love their pics too here...not boring like normal couples' wedding pics =P

http://coolsmurf.wordpress.com/2008/07/17/crown-j-and-seo-in-young-100th-anniversary-wedding-photoshoot/

- graduated

- changed status. this is the first time I feel that God is guiding and leading my relationship, so let's maintain it this way, don't upset Him.

- got my first job and is doing it the hard way

- went to Korea for the first time and learned that their people are not all nice and friendly.

- first time earning money by myself, have yet to control my expenses properly

- while the first half of the year was nice and easy, the second half of the year was unbelievably tougher than expected.

- first time going for NREC at the end of the year

- first time having a close friend getting married soon

- first time sharing what i've got from the Word of God in a not so small setting.

- cut hair until this short after like 8 years

- got baptized as a symbol of His grace.

the thing is that i don't want time to just pass my by, so I have to take opportunities when they come. ok, let's see if after this will get some more surprises  in life by the end of the year...i need to make life plans for 2009 onward, without leaving out the counsel of the Lord. I certainly don't want to just be swept away by the wind of change.

Currently listening to: Bi - sarangiraneun geon