traumated with datings and relationships...

i hope i'll not withdraw so much after i graduate

Currently feeling: tired

these are reasons why I have either backed away or rejected guys in the past:

1. they are short.

2. they are either too irritating or too agressive.

3. they are not attractive compared to me. (like what the...but seriously, who wants to look like beauty & the beast or the heartthrob & the beastwoman?)

4. they are found stupid when i talk with them.

5. they are immature and proven to be dependent on me.

6. most importantly, they don't have the same vision as I do. if they want to please themselves in life as their foremost purpose, then just forget about me lor.

criticize me as picky or narcistic or whatever adjective u want, but I'd rather be single than to be with any of the 6 guys above.

Currently feeling: nothing

it's funny...how everytime I tried to boast in my qualifications, someone would just bring me back down to earth. flushing all my self-esteem down the drain. tell me that i'm nothing. that my skin is just not perfect as those korean stars. my panda eyes and not-so-attractive nose. i know. don't worry. i know many are prettier and more ttractive than i am. and then many are less pretty also. that cap 4.33 is nothing at all. that my experience and knowledge is so limited so that i'm useless. well i'm learning. a honours student is nothing. a phd may be something. yes, let me take my time. i don't want to be a dumb bimbo, neither do i want to be a dumb and ugly duckling. let me take my time. let me not boast in whatever it is that I have now...

meanwhile, project is having minor problem. but my mentor seems to be very stressed about it. i dun understand him. but it's true, maybe i DO need to take this fyp still A BIT MORE seriously than now. or it could be that i'm the one who perceive him as very stressed when he actually isn't. ah who cares...today was certainly not a good day in lab. i'll try again and see tommorow what i can do.

meanwhile again...one guy has just become in a rel...while the other became single again...asik ada sing barengi aku single =D

Currently feeling: tired