Philippians 4:8 

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable (sedap didengar bahasa Indonesianya)—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

This is how we should think, think about positive things that is above. The pastor said just now during the sermon, without the loveliness...the true, noble, right and pure things can be very rude and rigid.

The passage during today's sermon was not on the verse above, but it was on Nicodemus's conversation with Jesus Christ in John 3. 

Anyway, I've been rebuked again...thank God. We really should place God's Word as the basis of our thinking about the world. Let the corrupted mindset of this world be corrected according to His Word. Let us not amend the interpretation of His Word according to how we think, how the world thinks. The way of thinking which is set up by the worldly education system.

I feel that this is really complicated to be put into words. What I got is that, I've to place my own mindset on the same position with the Bible first...and then correct others if my position is already right in the first place. 

And then, for whatever we do, ask first whether it is pleasing in the eyes of the Lord, if it's not, then please throw it away...If it is, then we should do it according to His way, not according to the world's standard. 

anyway, I'm coming back to sg today. My plane will arrive there at 7 pm according to the schedule. 

Currently feeling: relieved

I hate this place...

yes...from the moment i saw the outside view from the airplane...

from when I took a cab back to Holland...

where it looked so hellish...

I could hear the Jigoku Shoujo (Hell Girl, check out the anime with the same title if u dun already know) saying "You're going with me, we're going to hell..." in the background :s

and the unfriendly taxi uncle too

until the lonely dinner alone at BK

lastly the bad news from the forgetful supervisor

and now I'm crying inside my room listening to this song which reminds me of mom and bro ='(

this place is hella scary =( I'm sad... 

Currently feeling: homesick

Die Hard : Matine Angel
Die Hard II : Matine Angel Tenan
Die Hard III : Kowe kok ra mati-mati
yo?
Enemy at the Gates : Musuhe wis tekan
Gapuro
Batman Forever : Ngembat Saklawase
Lost in Space : ilang nang Awang -
awang
Remember the Titans : Eling Titan -
Titan
Sleepless in Seatle : Gak Iso turu
neng Seattle
Bad Boys : Bocah - bocah uelek
The Cooler : Selot Adem
X-Men : Wong Lanang Saru
X-Men 2 : Wong Lanang Saru Tenan
X-Men 3 : Wong Lanang Sarune Parah
Tenan
Paycheck : Kasbon
Silence of the Lamb : Weduse mutung
Independence Day : Pitulasan
Die Another Day : Modare Ojo Saiki
The Day after tommorow : Sesuke sesuk
There is something about Mary : Meri
ono opo - opone
All the pretty horses : Jarane ayu -
ayu
Planet of the Apes : Planet wong apes
Mummy Returns : Mami - mami podo mudik
The Abyss : Entek - entekan
Freddy vs Jason : Gelut
How to be a guy in 10 days : Yok Opo
Carane Megat Wong Lanang Mung 10 Dino
Deep Impact : Ngantem Njero
Black Hawk Down : Manuk Ireng Kenek
Bedhil
Dumb and Dumber : Wong Goblok lan
Guoooblok Tenan
Eyes Wide Shut : Motone Merem Melek
Gone in 60 Seconds : Minggat sak Cepete
Original Sin : Dosa Tenanan
Hide and seek : Delikan
Saving Private Ryan : Ngelesi Privat
mas Rian (Pancene wong goblok tenan
opo?)
Cruel Intention : Niat Ingkang kejem
Terminator : Terminal Montor
Million Dollar Baby : Genjik regane
sakyuto
The lord of the rings : Pedagang Batu
Akik

Here are some I can think of at the moment:

American Beauty - Mbak Ayu Tekan Amerika

I Still know what you did last summer - Aku isik eling kowe laopo pas sumer (sumer = demam)

Cinderella man - Wong lanang dadi cinderella

Harry Potter: Mas Hari dadi Porter

Scary movie: Pelem weden2an

Breakfast at Tiffany's: Mangan Esuk ing omahe Tifani

khusus buat shirleen yg dulu perna request gini2an =P masih ada lagi nih pleen, judul lagu ing basa jawa =P

from: http://hoax.wordpress.com

All out of love (Air Supply):
Katresnan kebablasan

Goodbye (Air Supply):
Minggat

Lost in love (Air Supply):
Wes ora tresno

Grease (Bee Gees) :
Kinclong

I started a joke (Bee Gees):
Wiwit ndagel

In the morning (Bee Gees):
Isuk utuk2

Saturday night fever (Bee Gees):
Meriang ning nekat ngapel

Summertime (jazz) :
Loro Panas

Stayin' alive (Bee Gees) :
Ora iso mati

Words (Bee Gees) :
Nggedebus

More than words (Extreme) :
Nggedebus pol

Highway star (Deep Purple) :
Jago trek-trek'an

Smoke on the water (Deep Purple) :
Umob (album 'Nggodog Wedang')

Soldier of fortune (Deep Purple) :
Prajurit raiso mati

Mama (Genesis) :
Mak'e

Another day in paradise (Phill Collins) :
Suk'mben ing swargo

Againts all odds (Phill Collins):
Ongko Ganep

All night long (Lionel Richie) :
Lek-lek'an(ngebyar)

Still (Lionel Richie) :
Isih (durung entek)

Stuck on you (Lionel Richie) :
Kecanthol

Truly (Lionel Richie) :
Tenan'e

Frozen (Madonna) :
Njendel

Like a virgin (Madonna) :
Ketok'e perawan

Don't cry for me, Argentina (Madonna) :
Ojo nangis, Sragen

Billy Jean (Michael Jackson) :
Tuku clono Levis

Black & white (Michael Jackson) :
Sebrangan dalan

Killing me softly (Roberta Flack) :
Di-ithik-ithik sak-modar'e

Release me (Engelbert Humperdinck) :
Cul'na aku

My way (Frank Sinatra) :
Sak-karepku

I don't like to sleep alone (Paul Anka) :
Kelon-ana aku

Fragile (Sting) :
Bentet

Hands clean (Alanis Morissette) :
Bar Wisuh

Believe (Cher) :
Percoyo

I still believe (Brenda K Star) :
Ngengkelan

Shy guy (Diana King) :
Clingus

Wild woman (Michael Learns to Rock) :
Morotuwo

Torn (Natallie Imbruglia) :
Suwek / dedel duel

Don't speak (No Doubt) :
Meneng'a wae

La copa de la via (Ricky Martin) :
Ayo bal-balan

Something stupid (R William & Nicole Kidman):
nggobloki

Kiss me (Sixpence None The Richer) :
Kismis

Viva forever (Spice Girls) :
Ketagihan wedak Viva

Uptown girl (Westlife) :
Wong wedok nggunung

Don't stop me now (Queen) :
Ojo Nggandoli

Bohemian rhapsody (Queen) :
Bu Hemi nge'Rap'

We will rock you (Queen) :
Balang2an watu

Always (Bon Jovi) :
Mesti ngono

Bed of roses (Bon Jovi) :
Peti mati

Alone (Heart) :
Ijen (album 'Kendel tenan')

Self control (Laura Branigan):
Poso

Warrior (Pat Benatar) :
Sepatu basket

The temple of the king (Rainbow) :
Candi

Sailing (Rod Stewart) :
Iseh Eling (ora edan)

Jump (Van Halen) :
Njondil (album 'Kaget')

Almost unreal (Roxette) :
Ora umum

Black magic woman (Santana) :
Mak Lampir

Smooth (Santana) :
Lunyu (album 'Kepleset')

Always somewhere (Scorpion) :
Mblayang wae

Still loving you (Scorpion) :
Ra duwe isin

So young (The Corrs) :
Bocah SD

After all (Al Jarreau) :
Entek2an

Forever young (Alphaville) :
Awet enom

Woman in love (Barbra Streisand) :
Suminten edan

Mandy (Barry Manilow) :
Adus

Suddenly (Billy Ocean) :
Mak-jegagik / uJUG uJUG

If (Bread) :
Yen

My heart will go on (Celine Dion) :
Loro hepatitis

The prayer (Andrea Bocelli & Celine Dion) :
Mbah Modin

I've never been to me (Charlene) :
Ora pernah kenal Tomi

Hard to say I'm sorry (Chicago) :
Kisinan

Zombie (Cranberries) :
Gendruwo

Boulevard (Dan Byrd) :
Dalan gede

Lady Valentine (David Gates) :
Putri Solo

Emotion (Destiny's Child) :
Muntab

If we hold on together (Diana Ross) :
Yen Gegandengan tangan

It's you (Dionne W & Stevie W) :
Jebul sliramu

Hotel California (Eagles) :
Losmen Kali Pepe

Big big world (Emilia) :
Donya'ne gedhe banget

In your eyes (George Benson) :
Blobok

Careless whisper (George Michael) :
Seneng rasan2

All I am (Heatwave) :
Serakah

I don't have the heart (James Ingram) :
Rempela thok

Just once (James Ingram) :
Sepisan wae

Beautiful girl (Jose Mari Chan) :
Cah ayu

To all the girls I loved before (Julio Iglesias) :
Kanggo randha-randhaku

Dust in the wind (Kansas) :
Lesus nggawa bledug

Pretty boy (M2M) :
Banci

Smile again (Manhatan Transfer) :
Ayo ngguyu (Waljinah)

Paint my love (Michael Learns to Rock) :
Nge-cet omahe pacar

I'll be here waiting for you (Richard Marx) :
Dak-cegat nyang kene

Become 1 (Spice Girls) :
Ilang siji

Babe (Styx) :
Maratuwa (Betawi)

Mermaid (Tatsuro Yamashita) :
Iwak ayu

Lea (Toto) :
Liyo (ora podo)

Just the way you are (Billy Joel) :
Sak-karepmu

Smoke gets in your eyes (jazz) :
Kakehan ngrokok

Long train running (Doobie W) :
Kepancal Sepur

All blues (George Benson) :
Kelunturan (biru kabeh)

O Danny boy (tradisional Irlandia) :
Jebul'e anake Dani!

Blueberry hill (Louis Armstrong):
Gunung Pare

Another clown (Leon) :
wong DPR

Big girls should not cry over stupid things, such as bad people, bad guys, bad friends, and so on. It's just too pointless to cry over. Don't cry over things that you cannot change anymore. Be angry if you want, for their wrongs so at least they know where they're wrong. But then, if you cry, they will only pity you. Isn't that sickening? I dunno about other girls but I don't want to be pitied by others ever, and by whomever of course.

Currently feeling: awake

Not so good news. The project on perylene has been allocated to another student. Because Prof. Suresh said the girl has had experience working with the project's mentor before. Surely a disadvantage for me. Yeah, I had too little time to do UROPS since I am an applied chem student and I got no choice but to do Industrial Attachment, for 6 months.

So, I think I'm going to do this project:

Synthesis of low band-gap materials - Fused ring system

The low band-gap conducting polymers are interesting owing to their intrinsic conductivity and applications in electrochromic displays. Poly (isothianaphthene (PITN) has become the prototype for small band gap polymers with a band gap of 1.0-1.2 eV. In this proposal, a few fused ring aromatic compounds will be prepared and investigate their potential applications. Specifically, the project will be focussed on developing soluble and stable molecules which can be evaporated under mild conditions to form stable thin films.

The mentor for this project is an Indian guy, with a yellow dot painted on his forehead. Sorry if this is mean, but I can't help but thinking that it's funny. The yellow paint dissolves in sweat and when I was talking to him last time, I couldn't concentrate cos there was sorry...'yellow' sweat dripping from his forehead all the time :s haha u dunno how funny-looking it is until u see this guy. He's smart and explains very fast, I have to admit. But, maybe it was the thing above that prompted me not to choose him as my mentor last time. Too distracting. lol. Oh I know, maybe we should discuss in an aircon room next time, that'd be better.

The prof. said that I can only focus on the synthesis and let the IMRE staff do the device fabrication and testing. I was like whoaa...I mean, the synthesis techniques are pretty advanced and I have yet to take even the level 3000 organic chem module. This is once again caused by the IA program. I will only get to study the techniques in the level 4000 module which I can only take during my last sem in NUS. Tough luck, huh?

I have realized a few things from this event...that I can't always get what I want in my career. However ambitious I am, my fate is still determined by God and other people's decisions too, esp. people of the higher rank in status and higher authority as compared to me. Thus, I don't believe in Mao Zi Dong's saying, "Your fate is determined by yourself." No more, no more at all. Secondly, sometimes it's useless planning too early. I can only discuss the project with my new mentor and read up AGAIN, then plan for the synthesis scheme (I know I have to study a lot though I hope I can take up new information fast... which I think I should be able to if I'm dilligent enough). My part time job for the chem dept has been cancelled I guess, so I don't think I'll have any lab work to do until the end of July. I felt that I've been fired. Not to worry since I am phlegmatic regarding this... Thirdly, when I think again whether my effort since May up till end of June is wasted. I think I should not think that way. I have learnt a lot from my readings on perylene. I have learnt some synthesis techniques too through the papers and device characterizations. So, it's not that my readings cannot be applied to the new project at all. I can only hope that what I learnt from the seemingly unrelated papers, can bring a new perspective toward the new project. So that my creativity would improve in problem solving somehow...Let's take it positively. Fourthly, even if you can get Dean's list or maybe you're a first-class student, it doesn't mean they'll give you a favor over other students. Unless you're the best student in your batch. But still, your grades can always fall too and your FYP might not get A- in the end, then suddenly you're second upper even if your CAP has always been 4.9 or something. Seems like horror if I were a first class student and that happened to me =P Dream high, just not too high.

Lastly, no matter what fate is it that you encounter in your life, have faith. Take it that it's already the best that God can give you should you already do your part. So just take things positively and smile

Another update is that the research group is currently away attending an expensive conference at Suntec City. They will only be back next week. Can you see what this means? I think the real holidays have only started now...yes, now.

Currently feeling: relaxed

I am currently hooked on this drama called Bad Couple. It's basically about a successful career woman (almost like the woman that Merryl Streep starred as in the Devil Wears Prada) named Kim Dang Ja (almost sounds like Dal Ja ya hehe just for those who know her) who wants to have a daughter without getting married. She hates getting married cos she doesn't want to lose her current job. Then, she searched for guys with perfect genes in South Korea. What does this mean? Good looks, good brain, and good personality (whoaa...every girl's dream, ne?). Then she found this botanist professor from Korean National Uni named Choi Gi Chan who fulfills her criteria somehow. Then she just did everything to get this guy to notice her, and seduced him to do it with her. Since this guy is a very good person and has never had any girlfriends before (just like someone I know..), of course at first he doesn't want to do it before marriage. And at first, he won't notice Dang Ja at all.

Because of Dang Ja's evil trick, they successfully did it and Dang Ja became pregnant. Then the situation turned upside down. Gi Chan is chasing Dang Ja to marry her because he felt responsible (no, at first he didn't know yet that she's pregnant) while Dang Ja is trying so hard to dump him cos she never wanted a marriage. And yea, the storyline is easy to guess since both fall in love with each other =p no, I don't know the ending since this series is still airing a few more episodes in Korea (I forgot which channel).

As the sidestory, there is also this woman who is Dang Ja's friend named Han Young. At first, she adored her husband as if he's a god. But, later on she found out that he's having an affair with a beautiful colleague at the hospital (since her husband is a doctor). She decided to create a fake affair with this young guy who is a model to make her husband jealous..

how? interested? try to watch a couple of episodes...

http://www.veoh.com/users/lyptika

Currently feeling: weird

the fyp thing was a hit to my pride and my hardworkingness I can lie no more...feeling so useless right now geez watched too much dramas. I wish I were still in Indo for 1 more week. This is ridiculous.

don't try to change someone's personality. characters can be shaped into perfection I believe. however personality can't just be changed according to anyone's wish. each person is unique on his/her own. leave him/her be. neither should one try to change people's likings. unless the likings are sinful of course. Dislikes may still be able to be changed if it's mild. Otherwise your labour is in vain.

have you ever hated yourself for being called a loser?

have you ever disliked yourself for being regarded as perfect?

have you ever cried for being labelled as a clown? an idiot? a witch? or a player?

fear no more, as long as you know yourself better than others (which I believe everyone by right should), and I believe that God also created human in a very complex way, way beyond those labels that people created. So just be happy, don't be afraid to be yourself and make a difference to this corrupted world with your existence.

even if I had always been labelled as someone 'silly', 'simple' or as a 'clown' (yea, if you know Milly from Ada Apa Dengan Cinta)...I know myself as someone better than just a clown. Badut nggak perlu honours degree kok h h =P I'll make a difference to the people around me. To make the world surrounding me a happier place with my quirky sense of humour, my hardworkingness, my practical view on life, and much more potential inside myself...

kalau dirimu adalah nahkoda, jadilah saja nahkoda, tapi sebaik-baiknya seorang nahkoda...

P.S. Surely anyone who said that Shrek 3 ain't funny must really have a bad sense of humour, nay? I won't say that it's lame. Cos cartoons like Madagaskar and Cars are way lamer than Shrek. Moreover some of the jokes are just overused in those two. Shrek 3 is just weird, for example the Snow White battle BGM (background music)...it's weirder than any cartoons ever =P but the overall movie is in good quality, I can see creativity, 'novelness' in the humour, and good moral messages  in it...It's difficult for me to laugh while watching a movie, alone, so if I still can do so, it's guaranteed funny. Trust me.

The wacky death of the frog king reminded me a bit of the kdrama 'My Girl'. I love donkey! I especially love the part where the puss in boots shivered wet and cold. It looks so real like a real shivering cat and then when he dried himself up till he looked like a furball, so graphic, and really funny =D Okay, once again, I love donkey! He's a character that Shrek is impossible not to have. And of course, the infamous ginger bread boy too. In the first sequel, he was funnier though.

from Charles Spurgeon's "Morning and Evening" devotional book

Nov 2, Evening

"Horror hath taken hold upon me because of he wicked that forsake thy law." - Psalm 119:53

My soul, feelest thou this holy shuddering at the sins of others (my note: actually could be the self's sins also right)? for otherwise thou lackest inward holiness. David's cheeks were wet with rivers of waters because of prevailing unholiness; Jeremiah desired eyes like fountains that He might lament the iniquities of Israel, and Lot was vexed with the conversation of the men of Sodom. Those upon whom the mark was set in Ezekiel's vision, were those who sighed and cried for the abominations of Jerusalem. It cannot but grieve gracious souls to see what pains men take to go to hell. They know the evil of sin experimentally, and they are alarmed to see others flying like moths into its blaze. Sin makes the righteous shudder, because it violates a holy law, which it is to every man's highest interest to keep; it pulls down the pillars of the commonwealth. Sin in others horrifies a believer, because it puts him in mind of the baseness of his own heart: when he sees a transgressor he cries with the saint mentioned by Bernard (my note: who's this Bernard? someone famous ya?), "He fell today, and I may fall tommorow." Sin to a believer is horrible, because it crucified the Saviour; he sees in every iniquity the nails and spear. How can a saved soul behold that cursed kill-Christ sin without abhorrence? Say, my heart, dost thou sensibly join in all this? It is an awful thingto insult God to His face. The good God deserves better treatment, the great God claims it, the just God will have it, or repay His adversary to his face. An awakened heart trembles at the audacity of sin, and stands alarmed at the contemplation of its punishment. How monstrous a thing is rebellion! How direful a doomis prepared for the ungodly! My soul, never laugh at sin's fooleries, lest thou come to smile at sin itself. It is thine enemy, and thy Lord's enemy---view it with detestation, for so only canst thou evidence the possession of holiness, without which no man can see the Lord.

P.S. I love "Morning & Evening", it has been a great blessing to our house :D It's recommended to u all who have never tried to read it. I also love re-writing a devotional like this, cos it makes me able to contemplate on the content more.

The word "sin" reminds me of the evil thing in Final Fantasy X that destroyed the world where the main character first appeared...but sin in our world is something a lot worse than that.

today has been a fruitful day for me, unlike the other days that have passed this week. hopefully it continues to be so until tonight...thanks to clay..

Gary Cao - Zhu Guang Wan Can (Candlelight Dinner)

Translated by: ankh - www.jay-chou.net 

多想要記住這一分鐘
Duo Xiang Yao Ji Zhu Zhe Yi Fen Zhong
How much (I) wish to remember this minute

回應我幸福的要求
Hui Ying Wo Xing Fu De Yao Qiu
In reply to my wish for happiness

我或許沒有別的夢
Wo Huo Xu Mei You Bie De Meng
Maybe I don't have other dreams

唯一的是 我愛妳 妳也愛我
Wei Yi De Shi Wo Ai Ni Ni Ye Ai Wo
The only thing is (that) I love you and you love me too


*不擔心一杯紅酒
Bu Dan Xin Yi Bei Hong Jiu
(I'm) not worried about the one cup of red wine

把我的真心透露
Ba Wo De Zhen Xin Tou Lu
Revealing my true thoughts

或許妳早就該懂
Huo Xu Ni Zhao Jiu Gai Dong
Probably you already realised

冰淇淋在喉嚨
Bing Qi Ling Zai Hou Long
The ice cream in my throat

能多冷靜幾秒鐘
Neng Duo Leng Jing Ji Miao Zhong
Is able to cool down the few minutes

氣氛再浪漫都不夠*
Qi Fen Zai Lang Man Dou Bu Gou*
How much more romantic it becomes, (it's) still not sufficient


#燭光晚餐 像一場美夢
#Zhu Guang Wan Can Xiang Yi Chang Mei Meng
#(This) candlelight dinner is like a beautiful dream

想這樣望著妳到永久
Xiang Zhe Yang Wang Zhe Ni Dao Yong Jiu
Wishing to stare at you like this forever

一束玫瑰 交到妳手中
Yi Shu Mei Gui Jiao Dao Ni De Shou Zhong
Passing one bouquet of roses to you

這一天 這一刻 這一切 妳屬於我#
Zhe Yi Tian Zhe Yi Ke Zhe Yi Qie Ni Shu Yu Wo#
This day, this moment, everything now, you belong to me#


{多想要攔住這一秒鐘
{Duo Xiang Yao Lan Zhu Zhe Yi Fen Zhong
{How (I) wished to freeze this moment

妳每天晚餐都陪我
Ni Mei Tian Wan Can Dou Pei Wo
Having your companionship for every dinner

美味比不過妳溫柔
Mei Wei Bi Bu Guo Ni Wen Rou
Delicacies are incomparable to your gentleness

從此以後 我愛妳 妳愛我
Cong Qi Yi Hou Wo Ai Ni Ni Ai Wo
From now on, I love you and you love me

多想要記住這一分鐘
Duo Xiang Yao Ji Zhu Zhe Yi Fen Zhong
How much (I) wish to remember this minute

回應我幸福的要求
Hui Ying Wo Xin Fu De Yao Qiu
In reply to my wish for happiness

我或許沒有別的夢
Wo Huo Xu Mei You Bie De Meng
Maybe I don't have other dreams

唯一的是 我愛妳 妳也愛我
Wei Yi De Shi Wo Ai Ni Ni Ye Ai Wo
The only thing is (that) I love you and you love me too}


Repeat *#

Repeat {}


我不是個浪漫的傢伙
Wo Bu Shi Ge Lang Man De Jia Huo
I'm not a romantic fellow

卻甘心為妳這樣做
Que Gan Xin Wei Ni Zhe Yang Zhuo
But I'm willing to do (romantic) things for you

想要什麼都跟我說
Xiang Yao Shen Me Dou Gen Wo Shuo
Tell me whatever you wish

從此以後 我愛妳 妳愛我
Cong Ci Yi Hou Wo Ai Ni Ni Ai Wo
From now on, I love you and you love me


我是不是有一點彆扭
Wo Shi Bu Shi You Yi Dian Bian Niu
Am I slightly awkward

從不曾這樣說出口
Cong Bu Ceng Zhe Yang Shuo Chu Kou
(I) have never said such stuff

太多的願望在心中
Tai Duo De Yuan Wang Zai Xin Zhong
Too much wishes in my heart

重要的是 我愛妳 妳也愛著我
Zhong Yao De Shi Wo Ai Ni Ni Ye Ai Wo
(But) the most important being, I love you and you love me too

P.S. I've just realised that Gary Cao is a talented singer-cum-composer...if you love chinese pop/r&b songs, his music will suit your taste

okay, the point of today's post is not the title above actually. I'm sorry if I attracted people to read this bcos of the title =P

I was a 'mosquito' for the whole day until evening. On the morning, I joined Adi (AdiKurniawan) and Grace (mellon) to the Vollard Picasso exhibition at Singapore Tyler Print Institute (near Clarke Quay). I thought there'd be many other friends but there were none other joining us liao. So, while waiting for the laundry to finish washing, rinsing, and spinning (right now), I'm writing this...

At 8.30, I took the bus 145 to Grace's house along with Adi who was late for about 5 min, but it's understood since it was raining cats and dogs this morning. Then we had 'spiku' for breakfast and da bao some in case we're hungry during the 2 films screening. Yea, there're 2 films which are related to Picasso and his works screened today at that place.

And so we went there by bus 64, joked around, laughed here and there, and chit chatted on the way. Believe me, not all that we talked about was crap la hehe eventhough I was there =P We were cold, hungry, and sleepy during the films screening. Luckily, there was like a 30-min break in between the 2 films. So we went outside during the break to eat a piece of spiku again. I was feeling a bit fatigued from watching the first film, which was all about Picasso's way of sketching and painting. The green-and-blue-dominated pictures, cubism, and so on. It was so boring until a few pictures at the end, it's getting better. I slept everytime a picture was being sketched/painted on screen, then woke up everytime it's finished haha so stupid isn't it? but trust me, it's the best film to fall to sleep to while watching. Then I played some chinese pop music outside using my hp, and my 2 friends were laughing at me for my taste. Aww man...=P I hope they can appreciate 'ai shang ai de wei dao' one day haha the chance is slim though. The second film was on Picasso's autobiography. It was better than the first one in my opinion. However it still drove graz and me to sleep again. And in the end, we only finished watching till the first part of the second film since it was too cold inside and we were hungry and low in energy...so, we went outside.

Personally, I don't adore Picasso that much. His lifestyle, his style of painting, and his women (He married twice and had a few mistresses throughout his lifetime). Maybe it's correct that he is a very talented artist in the eye of art critics in this world, but otherwise there's nothing special in his life. This made me realize one thing, that God doesn't see us living a successful life by merely working for merits and the world's praises, really. God wants us to fit to His design and purposes. And I have to pray for this too...in fact, sometimes I still wonder how can I be a researcher that glorifies His name throughout my lifetime? Of course it's possible that He leads me to another path too...but for now, I guess I'm still in the way of becoming a researcher chemist.

afterwards, we went to have lunch at a mall just next to Clarke Quay. We ate at the food court, the couple had award-winning Thai food while I was having a small portion of bibimbap. I've realized that I really crave bibimbap every now and then...huhu not only I am koreanized (I'm a fan of the culture) but I also like Korean food that much. After eating and me clowning accidentally (I mean the glass door incident etc, my 2 friends know la), we seperated our ways. My 2 friends were heading for a friend's wedding at Hilton while I was going Cityhall...took a walk for a while inside Marina Square. You might not believe this, but normally in Surabaya, people of my generation enjoy spending time in the malls very much.

Finished walking inside the shopping mall, I went to pp. Listened to some presentations on A.W. Tozer, Desert Fathers, Peter's journey, and George Whitefield. Believe me, the one on the Desert Fathers was really boring. I still dunno why the pengurus there chose this topic. Okay, there were some points that we could learn from the Desert Fathers...but they're really off the civilization and they went to the deserts to meditate cos they couldn't be martyrs anymore in the cities. So me and...ahem my friend, were dozing off during the presentation. And somehow I didn't regret doing so =P I have always been this rebellious anyway, toward things that I don't view as important only.

At the end of the day, Grace and I had dinner at the Bras Basah foodcourt and we went home. It was a lovely day, thanks to my 2 friends and forgive me for being a mosquito for one day...tommorow I shall not =P

I miss shoofei, erlin, ian, pat, ardi, and some other people...I'm glad Grace and my KTB are still here though =)

and

just like Choi Gi Chan said to Kim Dang Ja, "I'm full by just seeing your happy face." just like that I'm happy too

Currently feeling: refreshed

Of course, it's a must that we as women (if God gives the chance) get married to a man who puts God above everything else (or at least got 100% motivation to be one, is willing to be rebuked when he's lost his way), who can lead us nearer to God...only that way, we can look up to him, and submit to him, as a wife? isn't it? jia you, sa (sasa85)  this post is especially for you

Currently feeling: weird

as for me, I'd like to show a more down-to-earth-and-daily-life personality to people who 'appear' spiritual. And then, I want to project a more serious tone to those who are unserious. Is it okay? I want to be flexible on dealing with different kinds of people. It's just that. I think that way I could use my flexible personality to be blessings for all 

btw, why do I post this for? Cos there's a girl who told me to appear and sound more spiritual :s oh my...strange, isn't it? what do u think I should do?

jadwal hari ini adalah...

membersihkan kamar, baca ulang paper 40 halaman dkk, siap2 utk pindah ke hotel besok krn mama dtg dr Surabaya dan akan menonton konser Jacky Cheung di Indoor Stadium (yes, watching it alone :D !)...ada gosip kalo ini mungkin world concertnya yang terakhir...don't expect me to update this blog from Thursday nite - Monday morning (maybe I can do it during the JC concert on Saturday lol) :D

Btw a short update for FYP: just want to say that the guy with the yellow paint on the forehead is very nice, he answered all my questions, hopefully the project will follow along nicely :D he's on leave 16 July - 5 August though :/

My current favourite drama OST, go here to listen to it and know the translation of the lyrics :D it's one of the most suitable soundtracks for a drama I've ever yet to know. the "gi chan said" one is especially nice~ it blends so nicely with the image of gi chan that we know...a very nice and responsible and calm and mature and romantic guy (he's like the most romantic one in all the dramas that I've watched so far)

http://www.dramabeans.com/2007/07/bad-couple-he-said-she-said/#more-2134

sopo gelem nontok harry potter 5 karo aku minggu depan?

(sapa mau ntn harpot 5 sm aku minggu depan?)

ngomonge ae ndek kene yo, saiki sek gak duwe konco gae nontok bareng2...(bilang aja di sini ya, skrg masih gak ada barengan buat ntn sama2)

lek kowe duwe nomer hpku ya sms en ae aku, k (kalo km ada no hpku, ya sms aku aja, 'k)

mungkin aku gak ngecek blog sampek sabtu soale tinggal nang hotel (mungkin aku nggak bakal check blog sampai sabtu soalnya nginep di hotel)

ternyata lek takpikir2 maneh bahasa suroboyoku sek mantep yo hehe (ternyata kalo aku pikir2 lagi bahasa surabayaku masih mantep nih =P)

sekalian latian...just think simple

cheers

p.s. berita terakhir grace wes mau melok aku nontok...hari rabu, marie dinner, dek vivo rasae, lek ada sing mau melok bilango ae ya...(berita terakhir grace udah mau ikut aku ntn, hari rabu, stl dinner, di vivo kayaknya, kalo ada yang mau ikut bilang aja ya)

is to learn Chinese, Japanese, and Korean until I can interact fluently with the native speakers :D I love asian languages so so much....

among the 3, Japanese is the most reserved, Chinese is in between the two. Korean has this expressive tones (no, no, it's not like Chinese), and is divided into formal and informal expressions (almost like Bahasa too, I guess, we got bahasa gaul kan?). Those you often watch in dramas are mostly informal expressions. I heard Japanese is also like that, and what they teach in NUS is mostly formal expressions up until level 2. But of the three, Chinese is the richest language and the most difficult one to master. Haizz...my short term goal is to master Chinese since it is the common language people are using where I stay now =)

       10 Who can find a virtuous wife?
      For her worth is far above rubies.
       11 The heart of her husband safely trusts her;
      So he will have no lack of gain.
       12 She does him good and not evil
      All the days of her life.
       13 She seeks wool and flax,
      And willingly works with her hands.
       14 She is like the merchant ships,
      She brings her food from afar.
       15 She also rises while it is yet night,
      And provides food for her household,
      And a portion for her maidservants.
       16 She considers a field and buys it;
      From her profits she plants a vineyard.
       17 She girds herself with strength,
      And strengthens her arms.
       18 She perceives that her merchandise is good,
      And her lamp does not go out by night.
       19 She stretches out her hands to the distaff,
      And her hand holds the spindle.
       20 She extends her hand to the poor,
      Yes, she reaches out her hands to the needy.
       21 She is not afraid of snow for her household,
      For all her household is clothed with scarlet.
       22 She makes tapestry for herself;
      Her clothing is fine linen and purple.
       23 Her husband is known in the gates,
      When he sits among the elders of the land.
       24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
      And supplies sashes for the merchants.
       25 Strength and honor are her clothing;
      She shall rejoice in time to come.
       26 She opens her mouth with wisdom,
      And on her tongue is the law of kindness.
       27 She watches over the ways of her household,
      And does not eat the bread of idleness.
       28 Her children rise up and call her blessed;
      Her husband also, and he praises her:
       29 “ Many daughters have done well,
      But you excel them all.”
       30 Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing,
      But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised.
       31 Give her of the fruit of her hands,
      And let her own works praise her in the gates.

Don't you think that the woman from the passage above is a strong woman? yes, she is, as from verse 25. As I imagined about her, her arms must be quite big hehe However, her taste in clothing is not bad (verse 22), although it's just a 'side dish' throughout her life. She's smart and good at business. This actually means that a wife can help her husband work for money for their household as well...This woman is good at relating with people as well, with her husband and children too. She has true compassion with action in it for needy people and the likes.

She's VERY disciplined, for the right causes I believe. I also imagined how nice, tidy, and neat her house is, and her kids, and her husband. However, she is also a joyful person, she has confidence in God (verse 25) and fears God. Somehow, she's also a gentle woman (verse 26). Personally, I do not really conform myself to the four-types-of-personality theory. Maybe a girl is not born a choleric, however, a woman should discipline herself accordingly to her duties. Whether she ends up as a career woman, literally a servant of God, or a wife, or a mother, she has to be disciplined. She has to be dilligent and responsible, kind and gentle+wise with her words. I believe that these characters can grow on us too. Let's ask God for them and yet, let's work it out in ourselves as well...

Somehow today, I thought I lost my hp. Luckily, it's in a side pocket of my travel bag. Phew. Almost went crazy...cos it's a new phone. I'd feel really bad to my Dad if it's really gone. I want to be a tidier person, a tidier woman. Someone who maintains her household well. Someone who can laugh at the days to come. Yosh. I have to practice from now on.. I'm naturally a choleric, though sometimes I got other influences from here or there =P

and yeap, I've just been back from a hotel somewhere in Orchard. Had a nice and memorable trip with my mom, just the two of us, for five days. Cruised through the Singapore River. Chilled out at the decks at Vivocity. Trust me it's actually a calming and romantic spot in Sg Had some private chitchats and laughed often. Had some nice food and accompanied her shopping here and there. Mom cried melancholically on her way to the airport. I laughed at her cos everytime we left Grandfather's place in Jkt (during holidays), Grandpa would always cry, and then Mom would laugh at him lol Could it be that next time, my son/daughter would laugh at me when I cry during our parting?

She was actually here for the Jacky Cheung's concert. She's such a cool mom. Grace said she's the coolest mom ever =P Mom said she adores Jacky Cheung, cos not only his voice is great, but he's also a man and a husband of integrity.

Currently feeling: satisfied

This morning I went to the dermatologist to get another injection for my celloid (actually I'm beginning to get frustrated that it's getting worse with each injection :s). Moreover, it's exp...yeah very exp...according to my standard of exp.

Then after I ate some fried oyster for brunch, I headed to the airport, took MRT. The 7 freshmen that I met today were surprisingly quite friendly and respect their seniors. I got along with them quite well, I think...cos they don't 'kacang' me you see...so we all got on friendly terms quite fast. Their names were: Edwin, Aditya, Pascal (?!?! hehe cool huh?), Pras, Deasy, Gaby, and Vanya. As usual I was thought to be another freshman because of my babyface...by the PGP people. They thought I wanted to check in as well. There was a freshgirl who is also 'Deasy'...at least it's not 'Daisy', I thought to myself. In PGP I also met another fresh girl, she's Imelda. Hmm could it be that she reads this blog? I think she reads Ardi's blog =D Were together with seniors: Jetan, Mike, Shiela, Dannish, Erwin, Ansley, and Leo. Tried to play charades of movies...those I guessed correctly were: "Just follow law" and "Garfield". I think Mike is quite good at charading...

After everyone checked in to their respective halls and residences, I went to have some chicken rice at sci canteen, then I went back home. My stomach was terribly hungry and painful, I cannot survive without carbs...yes carbs...

so good looking ya? He's botany professor Choi Gi Chan from the drama Bad Couple...He looks a lot better ever since his last drama 18 vs 29...

btwbtw, funnily, my friend told me to look at this guy's pic. Cos I told her my type is someone who looks very oriental. Not too big eyes, okay nose, thin lips, and fair enough skin for a guy =D Maybe she thought I'd think that this guy is handsome or something like that... Guess what, there's 5% similarity between him and Lee Dong Wook! Yes, my boyfriend, Lee Dong Wook! esp. when he keeps his hair long like LDW...surprise surprise!

Is he chinese? yes

Is he indonesian? yes

Is he a christian? yes

Does he stay in sg? yes

Do I like him? no

till I found one who looks like RSY then...

Why did I choose Dec 3? Just merely because it's my birthday. Yes that is how spontaneous and simple I am.

So here's what it says:

"There is no spot in thee."

Song of Solomon 4:7

Having pronounced His Church positively full of beauty, our Lord  confirms His praise by a precious negative, "There is no spot in thee." As if the thought occured to the bridegroom that the carping (when I defined it on google, it's "faultfinding or unjustified criticism" world would insinuate (slyly suggest something unpleasant) that He had only mentioned her comely parts, and had purposely omitted those features which were deformed or defiled, He sums up all by declaring her universally and entirely fair, and utterly devoid of stain. A spot may soon be removed, and is the very least thing that can disfigure beauty, but even from this little blemish the believer is delivered in his Lord's sight. If He had said there is no hideous scar, no horrible deformity, no deadly ulcer, we might even then have marvelled; But when He testifies that she is free from the slightest spot, all these other forms of defilement are included, and the depth of wonder is increased. If He had but promised to remove all spots by-and-by, we should have had eternal reason for joy; but when He speaks of it as already done, who can restrain the most intense emotions of satisfaction and delight ? O my soul, here is marrow and fatness for thee; eat thy full, and be satisfied with royal dainties.

Christ Jesus has no quarrel with His spouse. She often wanders from Him, and grieves His Holy Spirit, but He does not allow her faults to affect His love. He sometimes chides(scolds), but it is always in the tenderest manner, with the kindest intentions: it is "my love" even then (how sweet is His love ya...). There is no remembrance of our follies, He does not cherish ill thoughts of us, but He pardons and loves as well after the offence as before it. It is well for us it is so, for if Jesus were as mindful of injuries as we are, how could He commune with us? Many a time a believer will put himself out of humour with the Lord for some slight turn in providence, but our precious Husband knows our silly hearts too well to take any offence at our ill manners. 

I was reminded by a friend yesterday...that "love covers all". I was having little faith in myself...as in, yes, God's love covers all...but how about mine? I'm so out of love as an individual. How could I give my all for people with deformities, weaknesses, etc? Esp. how could I share my life with such people? My human logic has always worked harder than my emotions all these time, I thought of risks, losses, sufferings, and so on so forth. But then, I was again reminded tonight. That Christ's love is already in my heart. I should not doubt it any longer...If pictures of love in kdramas had failed to convince me about the real power of love...then Christ's love won't really...

Currently feeling: happy

although this short life might not end in a happy note as in any happily ended Disney movies, those who wait on the Lord shall live happily ever after at the very end of their journey =)

will always pray for you, friend...knowing you in a short while, I've already learnt this much. I can only be thankful for that.

if charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting, what's the use of being pretty at all? is being pretty a blessing? pretty people are generally picky, they're often narcissists as well, thus i don't believe that they're the fastest ones to marry. so, what's the use of being pretty? just to be narcissists everytime you look at the mirror or your photos?

yeah, of course pretty people got more chances to be actors/actresses/models...but still...

it's not that I consider myself pretty that I talked like that above...:p and, no offence whatsoever to pretty people reading this...that is if you consider yourself pretty/handsome.

Currently feeling: wondering

currently life has many choices for me...

1. to read journals on my FYP topic

2. to watch Bad Couple ep 11

3. to read Harry Potter and the order of phoenix (sorry for my dumbness but I don't listen to Brit english that well, didn't understand the movie very well last Wednesday)

4. to read the Pursuit of Holiness

5. to study chinese grammar for the upcoming sem since I'm taking Chinese 3

aigoo, oddohkke? what to do? so many choices, so little time..currently so little interest and passion in all those except for Bad Couple & Harry Potter, my bad indeed..I hate staying at home like this, but all the more I hate carrying around my laptop at school...so I decide to stay at home...

P.S. suddenly I'm interested to read Van Til's "Defense of the Faith"...maybe I'd like to buy the book if it's available on Momentum bookstore...or shld I borrow it from PP's books collection ya...hmm

Currently feeling: anxious

After watching Bad Couple ep 11 today, I feel that I can relate more to the Han Young - Jeon Soo couple. Jeon Soo's character makes me wonder whether older men aren't necessarily always more mature than younger ones. I can see how sincere Jeon Soo is toward Han Young, which made me become more sympathetic toward him trying to win Han Young's heart. So now I'm not only supporting Dang Ja-Gi Chan, but also Han Young-Jeon Soo. 

and this one is the "latte art" from the drama "First shop of coffee prince". (Pretty ya? I love the teddy bear.) Starring Yoon eun hye and Gong Yoo. Undoubtedly the most popular drama of the season, with highest viewer ratings, with one ep up to 23% in South Korea. Rivalling older popular dramas such as Delightful Girl Choon Hyang, eh

pictures are from: www.dramabeans.com

disclaimer: i find it so easy to indulge in empty vanities when i'm alone. that's why it is said that two are better than one. when one falls, the other will help him stand up again. however, my sitch assures me from time to time, that I can't depend on human, whomever it is. Paradoxical isn't it? But that's the way life goes...and life goes on..yesterday is gone, and tommorow comes. my negative view on life is slowly killing my appetite for living. and for eating as well.

Currently feeling: sleepy

Having watched so many dramas, I suddenly got an idea to make a drama like this:

the main female lead is someone who's always got bad luck in love. as in, all the males who are after her are very very weird people, stalkers, sex-driven, money-driven, and so on. If not, they're like the male stereotypes in kdramas...naughty and rude rich handsome guy, a guy who is too good to be true however 6 years younger than her (just like Tae Bong in Dal Ja's Spring), a crazy ahjussi like the one from Delightful Girl Choon Hyang or a much older sugar daddy, a guy with cancer who's going to die soon, and other stereotypes possible. In the end, she chose to be with someone who is normal though maybe not up to her qualifications. Then she'd say to this guy, "throughout all the guys I have met before, you're weird, but you're the least weird of them all...aren't you happy ?"

weird idea ya? hehe i like it though =P still need thorough development of the storyline...

must have side story of the sidekicks though in order not to be boring and draggy.

Go here for Wang Lee Hom's new MV feat. the song, "Gai Bian Zi Ji":

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BWZlX7xFJ0o

A personal new favourite =D looking forward to buy his album at the end of the month...try hard to save money now...I've listened to almost all of the songs and almost all of them are nice (well to me la). Good and distinctive vocals, distinctive music style, high quality ballads (I've never liked ballads so much until I heard Lee Hom singing them), lots of violin and piano sounds, and so on. Here's his new ballad song, "Luo ye gui gen".

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NlHi9rkKUaI

Highly recommended for chinese pop lovers!

Currently feeling: shocked

in contrast with other people, I fall in love quite fast, not with just anyone la...but it's quite fast. and fall out of it fast also...what's it with me? am I that bad, huh? but at least I don't get heartbroken often and if I got it, then I'd go through it very fast usually hehe that's a good thing, right?

hajiman...nan Lee Dong Wook ssi ajik saranghae (L) (however, I still love Lee Dong Wook ^^) hence, I'm re-watching some eps of "My Girl" :D

something bad happened today...but it ended with a happy ending for this current episode...not to me, just to someone else I know

Currently feeling: glad

Dari epen: Pak Amin pulang ke hadirat Bapa hari ini, pukul 830 pagi, ketika kita semua menyanyikan lagu pujian Bapa Sorgawi mem'liharaku. May he rests in peace.

Was I shocked? Not really, cos I've been expecting this to happen sooner or later...I think most people also did. I got this quote during my quiet time last night: "Goodbyes are the rule of this world and reunions are the rule of heaven."

Just rejoice cos Pak Amin's now there with God Really, may he rests in peace...May we continue his passion and enthusiasm in evangelizing! Don't let the fire be gone... We shall meet him again when it's our time next time... 

Currently feeling: peaceful

I love Han Kyul & Eun Chan from "First Shop of Coffee Prince". Actually it's from a novel about a newly renovated coffeeshop called "Coffee Prince". They make the nicest "gay" couple ever! Of course actually it's not gay since Eun Chan is a girl, duh, like oh-so-obvious already...but this is it, the power of a novel, and a TV drama...

Meanwhile...I think I would rather have no friends at all, then to be forced to befriend someone I dislike so much...(like having unbearably annoying (not dry, but super annoying) sense of humour or something like that oh boy -_-'')

Then, I also dislike people who judge my love for kdrama as something really bad...like something that needs to be erased from my brain and heart and soul...I'm sorry man...but this is called...'art appreciation'. The way they shoot the film, the beautiful and witty dialogues, the actions, the expressions, the way the storyline as a whole manages to capture the attention and excitement of drama viewers, how the soundtracks manage to take the mood of the scenes so well, all the perspectives and philosophy behind it, the moral story. Yea, that's it. It's not just some set of beautiful people filmed together. if you dun understand, then just take it as our way of lives are just different. I used to have passion in acting and scriptwriting...though right now is not the time for them anymore...

p.s. by saying all these, I'm supposed to read my friend graz's boyfriend's book about Christianity in movies *dashes away in lightspeed* 

 11Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands, just as we told you, 12so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody.

that's why we should try not to make others do favours for us. (baca: ngrepotin orang) Be independent in fulfilling your own needs, your physical needs. I was quite surprised to re-learn that the Bible also has the term "MYOB" hehe strange, but I'm lovin it =P must try not to be too kaypoh and interfering in others' business too =D

My brother is officially in a relationship...after a long 25 1/2 year of waiting...what can I say? I'm happy for him. Brother has never been a Christian I think...but his girlfriend is strangely one. I hope she can change him one day. I hope that he can recall what he learned during his Sunday school lessons back then...His girlfriend is even younger than me, she's 20. Her name is Dian. My brother's name is Vic. I hope that brother will get married first before me...only then I can marry myself off in peace heheh... to Lee Dong Wook xD I am also looking forward to having niece/nephew when they're actually ready. I bet my mom is not as looking fwd to it as myself...

not very sure if the relationship is one to lasts a long time though, anyway I'll just cross my finger, wait and see...

Currently feeling: hopeful

I know that there're only very few real friends that I have here in the tabulas circle. Hence, I'm moving to wordpress. It's really friendlier, the layout can look lotsa better, and can do lots more stuffs than tabulas. two words, tabulas suc**...meanwhile I'll be preparing the wordpress site first. right now I like wordpress better than tabulas and blogspot..

more detail will be announced later...

http://eunchan.wordpress.com

goodbye to tabulas-ers who don't read my blog...I'm welcoming my real friends to it...

Currently feeling: sleepy