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Entries for January, 2007

January 1st, 2007

what a holiday...

first part of my holidays: hura-hura, kebnykan makan campur2, jalan2, maen2, asik2 aja

second part of holidays: internet di indo kena dampak gempa taiwan jadi lelet banget...

third part of holidays: terdiagnosis gejala liver...sempet panas, muntah-muntah terus 3 hr lalu berturut2, makan apapun muntah sampe ke dokter kemaren malem. Kaga boleh makan asem, pedas, sayur dan buah...nah lho jadi carnivore kan

To be honest...of course I'm sad for being unable to eat more stuffs before I go back to Sg...yeah pathetic Sg, w00t...everytime I go back here I can't help mocking Sg...except for the internet connection perhaps *sarcastic laugh* yeah yeah...I hope next semester is going to be fun...I hope the modules are going to be interesting...I look forward to continue my Korean lesson...I hope for more challenges so that I can grow further...yeah, in Christ. Still, give thanks for everything! Yeah, right? No, I'm not being sarcastic this time

Me...mocking local pharisees again? well, I'll let it put in Jesus's place. 

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January 4th, 2007

choi shi won...bae seul gi...

As much as I wanted to write on the totemo areumdaun (totally beautiful, in mixed japanese and korean...kekeke) pairing...actually this post has nothing to do with those 2 young Korean yonyein (entertainer).

I hided from some not-so-friendly guy from the past this evening when I walked past Dome Cafe where I saw him sitting with his family just now...He told me that I had a weird-shaped head during year 9 at junior high...Worst of all, I once had a crush on this guy. Therefore, of course that harsh comment had left a deep scar in my memory...Due to his prolonged hostility and bad words toward me in year 9, I had a fear toward this guy...and even until now I just realize that I still have it. I tried my best to makeover myself during that time...until I become who I am now...=P bleh apaan pula maksud gw...hahahha, bodo amat, narsis tetep narsis =D

Well, I thank God I came to know this guy...I almost think that I started to repent after my unpleasant encounter with this guy...I gradually wanted to change to be a mature grown-up...someone more pleasant to be with. 

However...my point is...sorry if this has suddenly moved to a different lane of topic...but, too often our fear of rejections and others' unsympathetic responses has disabled us to be who we really are. We are worried that if we become honest about our feelings toward others, the other party might not be able to accept it the way we want. 

Then, when reading Philip Yancey's "What's So Amazing About Grace?" (sorry if every blog seems to be talking about it...well it's the way it is...maybe God wants us in ISCF to learn more about grace =P so...just accept reality...) I encountered a quote by Friedrich Nietzche (yay, I finally typed German huhuhu) "Beware that when you're fighting a dragon, you don't become the dragon itself." or something that sounds similar to that...but it's the main point la...

Honestly, kadang2 susah ya mau ngejudge orang...batas antara benci dosanya atau benci orang yang melakukan dosa itu...aku juga sama bingungnya kayak CS Lewis, gmn bedainnya ya? Bahkan kadang2 aku mungkin udah iri, curigaan sama orang, nuduh gak jelas tanpa bukti...Yah maafkan aku bila ada yang merasa udah aku curigain yak...tapi rasanya kok dianya bukan pembaca blog ini, jadi ya udah nevermind =P

Maksudku...dengan posting ini aku udah berusaha sejujur2nya...mungkin kita harusnya lebih terbuka sama sesama orang Kristen dengan kelemahan2 kita...kalo terus2an kita pasang topeng that we are fine, we are fine...lama2 yang terjadi juga topengnya makin lama makin tebel...lomba2 siapa yang lebih fine gt ya...gak cuma kesuksesan kita dan berkat2 yang kt dapet yang perlu dishare...tetapi sebagai suatu komunitas Kristen aku yakin kita juga perlu share pergumulan2 kita...

Andaikan ISCF dan gereja bisa seperti AA (Alcoholics Anonymous)...ah bahagianya duniaku dan duniamu =D (yang gak ngerti...coba baca bukunya Philip Yancey aja deh...dijamin gak rugi kok wekekke) 

coming back on the 6th to sg...school, here comes the kiasu and workaholic student... 

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January 9th, 2007

sepotong kehidupan deiji...

Tadi pagi makan pagi awut2an karena mencoba mengoven roti dan gosong =P kemudian...diikuti dengan membeli buku econs seharga $30 in a really good condition, harga pasaran jadi gak nyesel kok.

Jam 10 ikut seat-in kelas Environmental Chemistry not recommended buat yang nggak cinta project, discussion maupun presentation. For me personally, kalo pas presentasi ada orang yang make eye contact sama aku, atau senyum terus, otak bisa blank sama sekali...udah pengalaman 2 kali kayak gini :s Banyak anak applied chemistry yang ambil juga padahal...menurutku kayak pelajaran Geografi dicampur2 sama pelajaran Biologi SMP sampe SMA deh...apaan coba...malah jadi mirip module arts. gurunya cewek, masih muda, orang Hongkong, dan kelihatan masih kurang pengalaman, kurang interaksi dengan murid2.

Lalu pulang sebentar karena ada barang yang ketinggalan dan penting...gak sempat makan siang...makan chicken currypuff yang tadi pagi dibeli dari kantin bizad doang, recommended kali ini

Jam 12 ikutan kelas yang semula aku anggap remeh karena lecture notesnya gak jelas sama sekali, membahas tentang population explosion, information explosion :s. Kali ini judulnya Petroleum and Industrial Organics, yang sangat disayangkan modulenya kok malah tentang chemical engineering =P Untung profnya agak lucu meski jayus...dan bahasa inggrisnya sedikit lebih lumayan dari profesor orang jerman yang sempet bikin trauma karena inggrisnya susah dimengerti. Orangnya tua banget, 2 tahun lagi konon mau pensiun. Sangat berpengalaman, salah 1 chairman di national chemical lab di Jerman, di Julich(yah u-nya kurang 2 titik di atasnya)...Dia visiting professor. Oke lah...cukup fun, banyak analogi ngajarnya...meski bbrp kata2 gagal dimengerti...senasib dengan anak2 singapore yang laen...so far so good =P

Jam 2 gak sempet makan lagi...hopeless dah cuma beli Vitasoy...hujan mulu pula...terus ikut lecture Instrumental Analysis 2 yang udah gw nanti2kan. Lecture notes juga sempet aku ragukan, tapi ternyata di luar dugaan lecturernya sangat sangat jelas ngajarnya, 100% materi yang tadi diterangin syukurlah bisa kutangkap dengan baik. Yah, sedikit maklum, duduk paling depan karena dateng ampir telat dan LT23 sangat teramat penuh terisi 180 orang an :s Malahan aku yang sebelumnya nggak suka analytical chemistry jadi suka...hebat kan tuh lecturer...namanya Khoo Soo Beng, umurnya 50s kali ya, suka becanda juga dan blak2an, gak bertele2, my type of a lecturer.

Jam 4 perut udah mulai kebal...jadi tidak makan apa2 lagi. Udah lemes banget, kedinginan pula. Dateng deh ke lecture Polymer Chemistry 2 tanpa dibekali sedikitpun lecture notes. Sempat curiga apakah lecturer akan bolos ngajar hari ini. Setelah sekian lama kedinginan di ruangan kecil di S13, berhubung komputer di ruangan itu nggak ada...pindah ke resource room nya Department of Physics, emang enak kok jadi orang Physics...sebut saja Bandrew =P Diajar oleh seorang assistant prof dari China, namanya Chen Ping, dia pindah dari dept of Physics ke dept of Chemistry Juli lalu katanya. Sangat teramat kesulitan dalam berbahasa Inggris sehingga aku tadi malah banyak membantu ketika beliau kehilangan kata2 :$ Maybe she's in her 30s...mukanya baik banget dan konon murah hati dalam memberi nilai

Tapi di lecture terakhir tadi...beliau memberi banyaaaaak banget soal mcq buat warming up ke kami...sayangnya malah banyak soal Physical Chemistry daripada Polymer Chem :s terjadilah debat antara seorang cocky (eits, fakta kok =P yg laen jg bilang gt), sebut saja ZM...dengan seorang yang pinter, OC, sebut saja WP dan lagi...seorang anak master yang nyasar di sarang anak2 Material Chemistry. Sebut aja Vana, kalo kalian tebak Indian bener kok....Si ZM terus menerus memberi jawaban yang radical, bahkan sampe debat sama Ms. Chen Ping, dan CP sukses dibuat bingung sendiri :s Si Vana terus menerus membuat jawaban yang salah, sukses dibuat sedikit malu oleh si ZM...Sedangkan WP ada di tengah2...dan seringkali menyerah saat terdesak oleh ZM. Debat yang terjadi dengan hebatnya (belum perna seperti ini sebelumnya di NUS sepanjang sejarahku) membuatku sedikit sadar kalo theory yang kami pelajari selama ini...ternyata masih banyak kekurangan disana sini yang membuat diragukan validitynya....Waktu berjalan makin larut...sampe jam hampir menunjukkan pukul 6 pas...akhirnya yang semula malu2 gak berani2 jawab (termasuk DS lah =P) terpaksa cpt2 jawab soal MCQ si CP ini biar kuliah cpt selesai.

Phew...selesailah kuliah hari ini...diikuti dengan makan malam dumpling noodles stall chicken rice (of course recommended lah, makanan science canteen gt lho hohoho) =P Rabu dan Kamis nyantai =P Rabu libur total karena lab blm mulai...Kamis cuma 1 lecture

kabar buruk terakhir yang kuterima dari nell...salah 1 AKTBnya mau quit...karena terlalu sibuk...NUS...NUS...

and then, welcome to sie pembinaan buat Erlin dan Pat :D

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January 11th, 2007

piece of thought

God's amazing grace saved a wretch like me...and you...

but we are not supposed to be wretches forever...let's live out our faith in Christ....

p.s. kdramas nowadays...always quoting Bible verses everywhere...I hope more dramas would portray Christian values...and still not become boring at the same time...

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January 14th, 2007

one thing i didn't share at last PU

Of all the things that happened in the year 2006. I would mostly thank God because of my current state of relationship. I could not share this of course, with the reason of almost all the freshmen in NUS-ISCF never knowing about my relationship with Voldemort...you know who you are. It would have been awkward and strange if I had shared about it in last PU =P right?

So...we decided to give this long distance relationship a try...let's see if we could make it until 17 October 2007...then there's something that surely is approved by God in this so-called ldr. Don't get me wrong...how can I be so sure that God approves this? I...no, we have been through so much things ever since 2004...yeah, that's when it all began for you who didn't know Strangely, magically, we managed to tolerate each other's weaknesses...to build up each other...to be honest with each other...and not to seperate to our own lives...up to this very moment.

I'm freezing in my pathetic room (the ceiling is water permeable currently and I have to try to dry it away using fan at its highest speed) when I'm writing this piece of note, so please bear with me if I say things hyperbolically etc =P I do feel like I'm in Lapland haha (only those who watch The Snow Queen may understand...)

I am a person who have been hurt by love so much before...had my pride destroyed etc...I am a person who is very pessimistic in love...unwilling to believe that there can be real true love between a woman and a man (sorry, ladies first) in our real world...unlike in ideal dramas or movies of course =P Hajiman(but)...

Jigeum eun dallayo(Now is different)...Through strange circumstances somehow I believe that God has been interfering in our relationship...and by getting to know Mr. V...I now believe in love...I believe in a mutually sacrificial love...Of utmost importance, I am finally willing to do sacrifices for the benefit of this relationship...You know waiting 5-6 years inside a long distance relationship is not easy....it is not easy at all...outsiders might say we are crazy...But somehow, I have faith in this...although we really do not know what future we will have.

Of course, I am sure that sometimes fear may come to us at some points in our lives...but I keep on hoping in the Lord...that there is something good that He has prepared for us...I am sure the other party is having the same thought whether consciously or subsconsciously...

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resolution(s)?

Okay not to forget this...let's get it over with this...cos I must read some lecture notes after this...:

1. To keep on having faith in this ldr and to maintain ld communication, seriously.

2. To keep on studying hard. I have always been the kiasu student...no, I'm naturally hardworking...responsible if not, at least...

3. To maintain communication with an old friend named Melinda...

4. To finish reading the Old Testament...I skipped 1-2 Tawarikh up till now huhuhu :$

5. Last but not least, to reduce my consumption of coffee since my gastric health has been deteriorating ever since high school. This is actually controversial due to my lbp getting worse at the same time...maybe more exercise would be a great idea. Then, no more crazy low-carb diets...girls, if you haven't done this, then don't do it...for the sake of yourself...your life's productivity. And not to consume potentially dangerous sour & hot(I mean chilli hot) stuffs...

6. Very very last one...ajuuu majimak ieyo...to be tidier

Yeah...everything seems to be quite okay except for number 5...it's a great temptation...for me =P Thank God I heard about the opium story todae hehehe

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January 20th, 2007

When is Daisy's Spring =P ?

Some descriptions about KBS2's new drama replacing "Snow Queen", "Oh Dal Ja's Spring": 

Single woman in her 30's... happy for self-indulgence...

In the 80's, girls spent their teen years believing that virginity and purity were a woman's virtue. In the 90's, they spent their 20's exclaiming that in order for women to become equal with men, they had to be independent. Then reached their 30's.. thinking that the "big party" (the prime of their lives) was over. Now they begin to realize- from where men sleep (or who they sleep with), from men's competitive nature- what successful liberation is. They learn that trifling matters can be cool. Sometimes it's ok to be mean without giving it a second thought. One can let go of all the money, power, success and still be strong... getting married isn't some homework one has to do. It's great if you marry, and if you don't... ultimately it's a choice...
This is the pattern of life for the 30 year old spinster for the past 21 years. This is the happy, single, golden season of the life she chose.

Single woman in her 30's... love is like a never ending spring day to them too.

A little too old for living recklessly and adventurously, yet young enough not to simply settle down and lead a peaceful (boring) life. Having passion still left in them, yet knowing too much about the world to blindly follow their passions alone. Standing at a major crossroad in their lives... choosing to remain forever single, or to ride the last wedding train. These 30 year old single women, however, still dream about the love as they have always been. Beautiful as ever, this is their story...
At thirty-three, even though the "prime of their lives" may now be over, just like in sketches or portraits, these women are as usual waiting for spring on a beautiful day like today.

in this passage, the Korean word for 'spring' can be, for most parts, interchangeable with its alternate meaning 'prime of their lives.'

credit n5y17cgirl for the translations

who is Oh Dal Ja ?

Synopsis: Oh Dal Ja, 33 years old and single. And still waiting for her 'prince' to come. She works as an MD of a home shopping tv show. She has everything.. money, power and success. The only thing she dreams about is marriage. Then she meets flirty guy, Shin Se Do, who seemed nice to her. After seeing how Se Do flirts with Yee Son Ju, the host of the home shopping tv show, she seeks revenge. Kang Tae Bong, who has a mysterious past, pretends to be her boyfiend and signs a dating contract with her. But then again, who is this Um Ki Jeong that seemed to be the perfect gentleman? An enterprise representative.. rich, goodlooking, intelligent and courteous. Three men, one woman.. who will win Oh Dal Ja's charm? Who will end up as her 'knight in shining armor?'

P.S. Who will end up as Daisy's knight in shining armor? hehe I was just bored when I posted this... I never meant to be so self-centered, k...

Tae Bong and Dal Ja

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January 28th, 2007

too much drama

just an update from me...lately my addiction to kdrama has been worse...to the point that I'm about to lose my sanity to catch up with school duties...luckily, I've finished my current addiction to Bad Family, finished last ep...ep. 16 last nite. I feel that I really have to give it a rating of 5/5 =P The after-watch feeling is so great...encouraging, and also heartwarming...Compared to others I watched recently...Fantasy Couple (4.5/5), Snow Queen (4.5/5) <- this one I'm still waiting for ep 14-16's subs

Well, no more dramas until next week finishes...still have 1 test, 1 lab report to do, some catching up with all my 6 modules, and Korean 3. Overall, 1 module is tougher than the other 5...which one? of course the one taught by the German adjunct professor...He teaches very fast! I'll have a test on it on Tuesday of week 6, just before CNY. Then after CNY holidays...there come the midterms for polymer chem and econs hehe...nice, huh? not so cramped up altogether...

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January 29th, 2007

The Name

The Name

READ: Exodus 20:1-7

You shall not take the name of the Lord your God in vain. —Exodus 20:7

It’s not easy to keep up with the shorthand that accompanies today’s fast-paced, youth-oriented electronic communication. In IM-speak (Instant Message talk) or text-message language, “laughing out loud” becomes “lol.” “By the way” is “btw.” And regrettably, some people use “omg” for “Oh, my God!”

This last phrase seems to be on the lips of many who receive startling news. But as Christians, we need to stop before we utter this or any other phrase that flippantly uses God’s name.

In Matthew 6, when Jesus taught His disciples how to pray, the first thing He told them to say was this: “Our Father in heaven, hallowed be Your name” (v.9). Clearly, God’s name itself is special. It encompasses His nature, His teachings, and His moral authority. To speak the name of God is to call on the Creator and Sustainer of the universe.

In every way possible, we should honor and protect God’s holy name, preserving its use for those occasions when we are speaking of Him or addressing Him in faith.

Let’s be careful never to turn the hallowed name of our awesome and mighty God into just another flippant phrase on our lips or in a text message. —Dave Branon

from Our Daily Bread Sunday, Jan 28th 2007

whatever it is...I thank God for speaking directly to me today...

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January 31st, 2007

Se7en - promise

Se7en - Promise
translation by: Yoonie (also credit: aheeyah.com)

When I was confused about a love
When I went through hard time with my memories
When my life was filled with boring days
You always made them special
You're the one who only turns to me
You're the one who's always next to me
But I've never been able to tell you how I feel
I've never felt nervous around you
But after watching over you and laughing with you
I think I've grown attached to you

I've always walked each day alone
But now
I want to walk while holding your hand
Bebe
As you watch over me closer than my shadow
I've realized what you felt for me
Now I know what you feel
And it might be a little late oh baby girl
But I'll leave traces of her behind
And keep my eyes on the girl who cried away from my sight
It's all for you
Now I'm going to give my love to you
For the girl who only looked at me
You're the one who only turns to me
You're the one who's always next to me
I've never felt nervous around you baby

For the girl who's been by my side
You're the one who's always smiled at me
I've always walked each day alone
But now
I want to walk while holding your hand
Babe
As you watch over me closer than my shadow
I've realized what you felt for me
Now I know what you feel
I'll only turn to you oh baby girl
I'm sorry that I didn't accept your love sooner
You've waited for so long
You've been hurt for so long
You won't have tears in your eyes anymore
I'll hold you in my arms forever
Until the day I close my eyes
It'll be you and be for eternity
I want us to be together bebe
Closer than our shadows are
I'll stay by your side to watch over you
I'll only love you oh baby girl
Now, I will only love you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JDp7t9NBt0M

The link above is for a fanmade Goong S MV using the song as BGM...

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communism vs individualism

I guess there should be a balance between the two, eh? r u with me?

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Letto - Ruang Rindu

Di daun yang ikut mengalir lembut
Terbawa sungai ke ujung mata
Dan aku mulai takut terbawa cinta
Menghirup rindu yang sesakkan dada
Jalanku hampa dan kusentuh dia
Terasa hangat oh didalam hati
Kupegang erat dan kuhalangi waktu
Tak urung jua kulihatnya pergi
Tak pernah kuragu dan slalu kuingat
Kerlingan matamu dan sentuhan hangat
Ku saat itu takut mencari makna
Tumbuhkan rasa yg sesakkan dada

Chorus 2x:
Kau datang dan pergi oh begitu saja
Semua kutrima apa adanya
Mata terpejam dan hati menggumam
Di ruang rindu kita bertemu

Bertemu

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