Akhirnya sodara-sodari... tiba di Surabaya, kota impian setelah lama dinanti-nanti :D As usual I'm amazed once again, seeing my beloved hometown after more than 6 months hahaha...udah kayak apaan aja Well, if you don't care about infrastructure...you don't care about communicating to others who are miles away from you, you don't care about the internet, etc...If you just want a nice & cozy getaway with family and friends...Surabaya is really a good small city to choose. Don't dare to dream to work up something here...just rest & relax...read a good book...read the Bible a lot...try to review languages you've learnt before...and do not try to design a website with this kind of internet only to install Adobe Photoshop CS 2.0 will be enough for now...sorry my webdesign fan and customers hehehe j/k j/k I'm not that good...after being gone from the design world for too long...one can very possibly lose all his skills and have to start from scratch again Eventhough I dun have good inet connection here...I still have cable TV (with MTV, Animax, and all those you can dream of), still have my family here, still have old friends, and so on So, in conclusion...I still love Surabaya more than Singapore

Currently feeling: calm

Everytime I see Christians around me misbehaving badly...I always become afflicted. Non-christians will say something like this..."Pura-pura aja ke gereja/ngajak ke gereja, padahal juga suka nipu uang orang laen." Honestly justru hal2 semacam ini yang seringkali jadi batu sandungan sumber terbesar org jadi gak mau percaya. Bahkan dulu aku termasuk salah satunya...berhubung guru2 di SD kristenku dulu suka terima bribe...aku jadi meragukan kekristenan...bahkan mungkin sempet sebel juga sm org2nya.

Ada lagi orang di dktku yang suka ke gereja, suka ke KKR rajin banget, tapi suka morotin uang calon mertuanya dg tidak terbatas, suka iri sama orang lain...gitukah seharusnya yang disebut garam dan terang dunia? So Christians should be more aware of their deeds...maybe you can easily appear very spiritual outside...but beware bcos non-Christians will see if there's something not right with your life and the way you deal with everyday situations.

Hebrews 10:24-25

24And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. 25Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

dan ingat juga...bahwa iman tanpa perbuatan pada hakekatnya adalah mati...marilah kita saling menegur dan membangun satu sama lain.

Currently feeling: awake

I've just realized that it's so tough being an applied artist...By saying 'applied artist', what I meant are: clothes designer, graphics designer, web designer, soundtrack composer, film scriptwriter, hairdresser, makeup artist, etc...WE...have to adjust to the needs and tastes of our customers, and we have to abandon our own style sometimes. Even if 1000 people say what the customer wants is bad...or ugly...or not nice, we still have to follow his demands...not to mention that suddenly we may get bad reputation because of this. Anyway, this only happens when we make an art specifically for a person or a group, not for public usage.

I've just realized sometimes it's becoming so frustrating when we're not allowed to integrate our style into the artwork. I'm thinking of becoming an independent artisan...not yielding to specific customers' demands, not fulfilling others' personal requests. I think this way, I can express my style freely. I don't care whether most people will like my designs or not, since I'm not a fulltime designer...I am just doing this as a hobby, as an outlet for my creativity

Some like it modern, following the current trend; some prefer classic, timeless style; some want it dark/gothic, some demand a professional look, some search for out-of-the-box innovations.

I don't want to judge Mr. Pacman and his recently many followers anymore...I repent...I repent...How can I judge those ppl while overseeing my own weaknesses. Let me love these people while hating their sins and mine.

Let me & my good deeds be forgotten as time goes by...On the other hand, let God & his works not be. It's time for me to go, let go...and say farewell. 

Happy early Christmas friends...reflect ourselves, repent for our sins, ask again for God's forgiveness. 

Currently feeling: okay