I just finished reading Death Note the manga this noon...It has an awesome ending in my opinion...and I should not give any spoilers here, eh ? This manga really has stimulated my way of thinking overall...it's as if it's good for brain exercising...Some deaths in the plot I guess are just necessary for the development of the story. I wish the upcoming movies will also be shown as intelligent as the manga...however I understand that it would inevitably lack in the details, the beautifully intricate mindsets and plots of the characters...esp. Light, L, Mellow and Near. Out of the 4, I still like L the best despite all his weaknesses and naiveness that makes him the most humane out of the 4 as well I suppose...Ever since my history of reading mangas...none has been proven to be engaging enough as Death Note. If I recommend Delightful Girl Choon Hyang as the best kdrama ever...then I'll now recommend Death Note as the best manga up until now.

P.S. In the end...justice really prevailed!

Currently feeling: satisfied

from Erlin (Erlianda)'s blog... from another website she said...it's bad really...but how can the Sg government change this sitch, I wonder...

But one thing puzzles me about these oft-made comparisons. I talked
to Tharman Shanmugaratnam to understand it better. He's the minister
of Education of Singapore, the country that is No. 1 in the global
science and math rankings for schoolchildren. I asked the minister
how to explain the fact that even though Singapore's students do so
brilliantly on these tests, when you look at these same students 10
or 20 years later, few of them are worldbeaters anymore. Singapore
has few truly top-ranked scientists, entrepreneurs, inventors,
business executives or academics. American kids, by contrast, test
much worse in the fourth and eighth grades but seem to do better
later in life and in the real world. Why?

"We both have meritocracies," Shanmugaratnam said. "Yours is a
talent meritocracy, ours is an exam meritocracy. There are some
parts of the intellect that we are not able to test well-like
creativity, curiosity, a sense of adventure, ambition. Most of all,
America has a culture of learning that challenges conventional
wisdom, even if it means challenging authority. These are the areas
where Singapore must learn from America."

Shanmugaratnam also pointed out that American universities are
unrivaled globally-and are getting better. "You have created a
public-private partnership in tertiary education that is amazingly
successful. The government provides massive funding, and private and
public colleges compete, raising everyone's standards."

Shanmugaratnam highlighted in particular the role that American
foundations play. "Someone in society has to be focused on the long
term, on maintaining excellence, on raising quality. You have this
array of foundations-in fact, a whole tradition of civic-minded
volunteerism-that fulfills this role. For example, you could not
imagine American advances in biomedical sciences without the Howard
Hughes Foundation."

Currently feeling: working

I need new shoes. I have bought 2 pairs of ballet shoes (not the real one, girls, u know what I mean.) until now (not to count those I bought in Indo before I came to sg)...and all of them are already ruined...alias tidak layak pakai :s jebol sana-sini. so pissed haha...no matter whetehr they're cheap or expensive, the result is still the same. I know sneakers would probably be a better choice...but still girls can't always wear sneakers everywhere they go can't they? Heck...even guys can't always do so

But yeah...I've decided to make a final big splurge for a pair of nice and comfy sneakers from my IA salary.

Currently feeling: sore

Ada Band - Pura-pura Cinta

Sebuah kisah yang terlahir
Bolehlah kusebut cinta
Kini kualami... Dan ingin terhapus semua dari memori ini

Tiada pernah terbayangkan
Pertama kali bertemu
Sapa lembut manis
Menggoda merayu mencoba menangkap hati ini

Chorus:
Pura-pura kau mencintaiku
Pura-pura pula sayang itu
Terlebih kau cantik juga lucu tapi tidak kau gantungkan

Memang sialnya hidupku
Harus teralami juga
Jadi korban tema selingkuh yang kerap
Ku sangkal selama ini

Chorus

Pura-pura kau menyukaiku
Pura-pura kau rindu itu
Dihadapan mata kau melakukan hal sama pada pria lain

Sadarkan dirimu kasih semua
Melampaui batas
Jangan sampai ini akan balik menyerangmu

Chorus

Pura-pura kau menyukaiku
Pura-pura kau rindu itu
Dihadapan mata kau melakukan hal sama pada pria lain

Pura-pura kau cintaku

P.S. Just a song I'm currently addicted to, I've always liked Ada Band so much from the start of Doni becoming the vocalist to replace Baim...nothing related to my own story heheh :D

Currently feeling: cheerful

I've been thinking whether or not I'm actually sane these days. I turn from hyperly happy to sudden breakdowns and cryings in seconds/minutes. I'm starting to wonder whether I have that bipolar disorder...and I know what's the cause of all these...sarang hagi daemunae...

I've asked God so many times why is He giving me this kind of life experience...but it seems that He wants me to learn something from the sitch...I've asked a girl who's been in the relatively similar situation before...she said it's tough, it's probably one of the toughest thing that's possible to happen in a relationship...but when it's through, then it's through...this is like some kind of an examination.

Quoted from the 2006 Indo movie, "Jomblo", said by the character Doni: "Kalo ada orang yang selingkuh, berarti kalo nggak dia yang belum bisa memberi yang terbaik untuk pasangannya, atau pasangannya yang belum bisa memberi yang terbaik buat dia." 

It's true that a couple always needs to introspect themselves in order to bring out the best for one another

Currently feeling: melancholy

Ada Band - Karena Wanita (Ingin Dimengerti)

Lekuk indah hadirkan pesona
Kemuliaan bagi yang memandang
Setiamu simbol keanggunan khas perawan
yang... kau miliki

Akulah pengagum ragamu
Tak ingin kumenyakitimu
Lindungi dari sengat dunia yang mengancam... nodai... sucinya lahirmu

Chorus:
Karena wanita ingin dimengerti
Lewat tutur lembut dan laku agung
Karena wanita ingin dimengerti
Manjakan dia... dengan kasih sayang

Ingin kuajak engkau menari
Bermandi hangat cahaya bulan
Sebagai tanda kebahagiaan
Bagi semesta cinta kita

Chorus

Bintang terang itulah dirimu
Janganlah redup dan mati
Aku dibelakangmu memeluk dan menjagamu

P.S. another ada band's song I like, the clip shows women of all ages...I regard this song as quite sweet to women

Let me be alone. Let me be invisible to the whole world as if my existence wasn't meant for others.

Don't want to need you when you don't need me.

1. The new xman sucks...not funny...not even spectacular...stupid performances...too individualistic...boo...anjoahaeyo

2. New dramas coming up though not fully subbed yet: Bad family (as far as ep. 1, funny), What's up fox? (from the writer of MNKSS), Fantasy couple (from the writer of DGCH & My Girl, can't wait for this one), Soulmate (yea, slightly vulgar, but still fun to watch...I bet it has a morale story to learn in the end of the day, esp. for playboys and playgirls )

3. Been having too much ups and downs...I have to stop listening to emo songs. and I must tune down my feeling of loneliness.

4. ...can't wait to see oppa again...nov 19th :D

...still a little hard to see what's going on (8) - Damien Rice's Cannonball

He said, ’Take now your son . . .’ —Genesis 22:2 

God’s command is, "Take now," not later. It is incredible how we debate! We know something is right, but we try to find excuses for not doing it immediately. If we are to climb to the height God reveals, it can never be done later— it must be done now. And the sacrifice must be worked through our will before we actually perform it.

"So Abraham rose early in the morning . . . and went to the place of which God had told him" ( Genesis 22:3 . Oh, the wonderful simplicity of Abraham! When God spoke, he did not "confer with flesh and blood" ( Galatians 1:16 . Beware when you want to "confer with flesh and blood" or even your own thoughts, insights, or understandings— anything that is not based on your personal relationship with God. These are all things that compete with and hinder obedience to God.

Abraham did not choose what the sacrifice would be. Always guard against self-chosen service for God. Self-sacrifice may be a disease that impairs your service. If God has made your cup sweet, drink it with grace; or even if He has made it bitter, drink it in communion with Him. If the providential will of God means a hard and difficult time for you, go through it. But never decide the place of your own martyrdom, as if to say, "I will only go to there, but no farther." God chose the test for Abraham, and Abraham neither delayed nor protested, but steadily obeyed. If you are not living in touch with God, it is easy to blame Him or pass judgment on Him. You must go through the trial before you have any right to pronounce a verdict, because by going through the trial you learn to know God better. God is working in us to reach His highest goals until His purpose and our purpose become one.

P.S. I am really blessed having read this passage this morning...It reminds me of my decision to let him go, I mean to let God decides his life for him...without my interference in it. And then, there's this sentence, "If the providential will of God means a hard and difficult time for you, go through it." I pray that I will trust God continuously, to believe that He won't dissapoint me in the end. I pray for the same for others also Thank God for He is really a good God.

Currently feeling: thankful

This time
This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long,
Too late
Who was I to make you wait

Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know, you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if I don’t see you anymore

On my knees,
I’ll ask Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you,
I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know, you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if I don’t see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving
Hold on to me and never let me go

P.S. I've liked this song very much since the first time I heard it on youtube, though I don't quite agree with the 'hell' part wakaka  

Currently feeling: okay

Setelah tiba2 ketemu sohib lamaku kmrn gara2 ari Jadi merasa kangen banget dan pengen tulis2 ttg temen2 dan keluarga yg meninggalkan special impression in my heart gt :D

MTR, AS (bukan AS yang punya tabulas jg), PPU, Yuwono (well I forgot his last name ), MDS, they all left a very deep impression in my heart...they were once really2 my best friends...despite the fact that only 2 of them are Christians. Despite the fact that now it's hard for me to share my point of view in life as a Christian...I still have this little part of my heart which is really joyful when I come in contact with them They are my old friends...ada yg dr SD, SMP, maupun SMA. Skrg udah kepencar2, MTR masih di Sg kemaren baru ktm AS & Yuwono di Sby, PPU di Jakarta (anak GRII jg gt di Jkt, lucu jg ya, padahal dulu2 sih kt berdua gak perna ke GRII ), MDS di Sydney. Ada suatu memori yang tak terlupakan gt rasanya ketika bersama mereka. Pengen rasanya jadi sahabat terus ampe ntar udah kerja, menikah, bahkan ampe tua kalo Tuhan mengijinkan Ada suatu perasaan sayang dan care yang juga gak bs terlukiskan yang membedakan mereka dari temen2ku di Sg Emang our journey in time does make a difference sih.

Pengen rasanya crita satu2 ttg mereka semua, karena ada kenangan yang spesial ttg mrk semua wekekek ada yang suka design web dan ntn anime bareng2, ada yang suka gambar manga bareng2 (sampe kt buat manga barengan gt ), ada yg kucontekin sampe aku dimarahin guru dan kapok kasih contekan lg, ada yang slalu discuss ttg mslh cinta & lagu2 pop sama aku, dan ada yg be there for me ketika aku disakitin seorang cowo gak jelas pas SMP  I really love you all, a guy & girls :D ! Hope we'll still keep in touch until late in our lives

Currently feeling: warm hearted

Melinda Trigunawan Rarasati

chotponje...alias no 1...Melinda. Sahabatku yang satu ini aku kenal sejak kelas 3 SMP karena kami sekelas. Anaknya dr dulu emang udah dikenal sbg org yg childish and selfish, kadang jg pelit wekekek if you ask her about this, I'm quite sure she'll agree with me masih inget pertama kali dulu di kelas 3 smp, aku pinjem hpnya, terus ketika aku berusaha copot plastik casing hpnya (yg sbg pelindung itu), dia marah gt dan lgs mengambil balik hpnya haha xD Pas kelas 3 smp sih kt gak deket2 amat. I just know her as someone who's good at drawing manga-like characters, likes to play RPGs too, and loves to read manga, yeah elex media komputindo manga :D

Geurom...lalu...pas kelas 1 SMA, berhubung aku bermasalah sama geng deretan belakang pada mulanya (krn suatu tragedi pas kelas 3 smp), akhirnya aku jadi deket sama anak2 plg rajin di kelas yang duduk di depan2 gt. Jadilah aku duduk di tengah2 antara geng depan dan geng belakang Geng belakang seakan2 adalah anak2 yang SELALU dimarahin guru sedangkan geng depan adalah anak2 KESAYANGAN guru hehehe

Nah, si Melinda ini...termasuk geng depan jg, karena dia jg salah 1 ce yang kurang demen bergaul sama anak2 centil yang demennya ngegosip, ngmgin fesyen doang, dan cekikikan dg hebohnya. Apakah aku termasuk ce yang anti mereka jg? Mungkin juga...Akhirnya kami pun dekat dg satu sama lain, jg dg anak2 geng depan ini...yg paling dkt bagi aku sendiri sih Melinda, Caroline, Maria, Hariyanto, dan Frendy. Namun konon 4 org yang ada di geng itu, kurang suka sama si Maria, karena suatu sifat tertentu. Aku perna ada suatu kesalahan karena berusaha mendamaikan Maria dengan anak2 ini...alhasil akhirnya pas kelas 2 SMA, aku dg suksesnya dikucilkan di mana akhirnya aku jadi deket sama anak2 kelasku sendiri, di mana nantinya aku deket sama Agustina Sidharta (alias AS), but that's another story.

Aku sama Melinda pas jaman SMA sukanya main dan ngmgin RPG sama2 (dr Suikoden series, FF series sampe Thousand Arms yg bisa ngedate2 itu), aku jg mempengaruhi dia utk start a website di mana akhirnya dia bikin website Inu Yasha yg mengalahkan popularitas websiteku sendiri hehehe Hal2 yang memorable dr persahabatanku dg Melinda adalah...suka telpon berjam2 untuk discuss website, suka pergi shopping bareng ke Tunjungan Plaza untuk hunting baju2 outlet yang murah2, perna beli kaos kaki yang modelnya sama tp warna nya beda bertiga ma Caroline , suka curhat2 soal gebetan (rahasia nih, yg ada sih gebetan saya dan Caroline doang, Melinda belum bener2 suka sama co pas itu), bikin drama bareng buat tugas BI, bikin rekaman radio bareng buat tugas BI lagi (we spent hours & hours for a few days to make it, it was really fun :D) en sst...suka ngomongin seorang ce yang ganjen banget di kelas padahal gak cakep2 amat ahhaha

Pas kelas 3 SMA, kami jadi deket kembali tiba2...entah knp ya, aku jg ga ngerti, kali aja karena kami sama2 masuk IPA, sedangkan temen2 deketku yang laen sebagian masuk IPS. Oh ya hor...tiba2 keinget, kan aku yg mempengaruhi si Melinda main Ragnarok Online, game populer saat itu tiba2 dia jadi addicted banget ngalah2in aku gt sampe karakternya sptnya ada 2 yang level 99 (level tertinggi di game saat itu). Aku masih inget...saat aku putus dengan pacarku yang pertama, si Mel juga yg kutelpon untuk mendiscuss ttg dia dan segala kekesalanku hehehe :D Sekarang Melinda sudah punya pacar, anak Semarang yang kerja di Jkt. Melinda sendiri kuliah di MDIS dan rasanya th dpn akan berakhir. Rasa2nya dia cuma mau mencoba kerja sebentar di Singapur...lalu balik ke Indo. Makasih Mel...utk persahabatan kita :D for being there for me when I needed someone to listen to my stories...although you're usually the one who is chattier than me :') Semoga persahabatan kita tetep jalan sampe kt tua, bila Tuhan mengijinkan. Tak lupa juga doaku agar suatu saat nanti Melinda boleh menerima Tuhan Yesus sebagai juruselamat... 

Currently feeling: touched

hehehe jadi rada2 gmn gt sama media korea akhir2 ini...bnyk yg mirip2 ilustrasi Shamila-nya EE view this clip sampe endingnya...(dun worry the song is also nice la)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FvfbDI7oCEE

I'm starting to wonder whether this type of media can be used to enter evangelism or not...keren sih...keinget critanya Delightful Girl Choon Hyang juga, pas bapaknya Mong Ryong bebasin si Mong Ryong dan rela dia yg dipecat...

Currently feeling: amused

17Nevertheless, each one should retain the place in life that the Lord assigned to him and to which God has called him. This is the rule I lay down in all the churches. 18Was a man already circumcised when he was called? He should not become uncircumcised. Was a man uncircumcised when he was called? He should not be circumcised. 19Circumcision is nothing and uncircumcision is nothing. Keeping God's commands is what counts. 20Each one should remain in the situation which he was in when God called him.

Dear God, please help me to retain the place in life that You have assigned for me and to which You have called me...

KIRANA  Cipt. Erwin/Dhani

Kucoba memahami, tempatku berlabuh
Terdampar di keruhnya, satu sisi dunia
Hadir di muka bumi, tak tersaji indah
Kuingin rasakan cinta

Lusuh lalu tercipta, mendekap diriku
Hanya usang sahaja, kudamba Kirana
Ratapan mulai usang, nur yang kumohon
Kuingin rasakan cinta

Ayah bunda tercinta, satu yang tersisa
Mengapa kau tiupkan, nafasku ke dunia
Hidup tak kusesali, mungkin kutangisi
Kuingin rasakan cinta

Peluhku pun mengering, menanti jawabmu
Tak akan pernah usai, cintaku padamu
Hanya kata yang lugas, yang kini tercipta
Kuingin rasakan cinta

Semakin jauh, ku melangkah
Semakin perih, jejak langkahku
Hariku pun semakin sombong
Meski hidup terus berjalan, terus berjalan

Kirana jamah aku, jamahlah rinduku
Hanya wangi terurai, yang dapat kucumbu
Kuingin rasakan cinta

Manis seperti mereka, tulus seperti adanya
Suci seperti dirimu, ingin rasakan cintamu

P.S. totally addicted to this song huhuhu lagu tahun 1996 gitu...anyway ternyata tahun 1993 Dewa 19 ada lagu yg judulnya "Deasy" huhuhu senang jg ada nama yang mirip2 dibikin lagu narsis...narsis...anyway palingan juga terilham Deasy Ratnasari mereka...

Currently feeling: bored

Read: 1 Samuel 3:1-10 

It shall be, if He calls you, that you must say, “Speak, LORD, for Your servant hears.” —1 Samuel 3:9

Currently feeling: contemplative

Pulang ke kotamu
Ada setangkup haru dalam rindu
Masih seperti dulu
Tiap sudut menyapaku bersahabat
Penuh selaksa makna
Terhanyut aku akan nostalgia
Saat kita sering luangkan waktu
nikmati bersama suasana Jogja

Di persimpangan langkahku terhenti
Ramai kaki lima
Menjajakan sajian khas berselera
Orang duduk bersila
Musisi jalanan mulai beraksi
Seiring laraku kehilanganmu
Merintih sendiri, ditelan deru kotamu

Walau kini kau t'lah tiada, tak kembali
Namun kotamu hadirkan senyummu abadi
Izinkanlah aku untuk slalu pulang lagi
Bila hati mulai sepi tanpa terobati

P.S. Indonesia, tanah airku...Aku kangen kamu.

Currently feeling: melancholy

Berenang di Lumpur, Delapan Jam Bertahan di Pohon
Musibah ledakan pipa gas Pertamina yang bersumber di bawah tanggul lumpur Lapindo sangat dahsyat. Inilah kesaksian beberapa korban yang selamat.

FATHUR ROZI-DIAN W., Sidoarjo

Sekitar pukul 20.00, langit di atas Porong sudah gelap. Sejumlah alat berat tampak terburu-buru keluar dari lokasi pusat semburan lumpur Lapindo. Mesin ekskavator dan back hoe itu terdengar menderu-deru. Mereka seperti berpacu dengan waktu karena sudah tak mampu mengendalikan luapan lumpur di tanggul utama.

Tak lama kemudian, lumpur mulai masuk dan memenuhi ruas tol Porong-Gempol. Para pekerja pun berlarian sambil berteriak-teriak. "Bahaya! Bahaya! Lari!" ujar mereka bersahut-sahutan. Suasana mencekam.

Hanya berselang lima menit kemudian, terdengar ledakan sangat keras disertai semburan lidah api yang tinggi. Kondisi semakin kacau. Lumpur panas tiba-tiba mengalir lebih kencang. Terjadinya ledakan -belakangan diketahui berasal dari pipa gas Pertamina- di bawah tanggul tersebut menyebabkan tanggul penahan lumpur di pond Siring jebol.

Lumpur pun mengalir dari dua titik yang berjarak sekitar 50 meter. Selain itu, di titik semburan api kemudian menyembur lumpur segar setinggi sekitar empat meter. Kejadian itu bertahan hingga sekitar satu menit.

"Semula saya kira ada semburan baru," kata Cipto, anggota Unit Desain dan Supervisi Timnas Penanggulangan Lumpur Sidoarjo. Pria 51 tahun itu merupakan salah seorang di antara tiga anggota timnas yang berhasil selamat dari insiden tersebut.

Sebelum ledakan terjadi, dia naik ke atas tanggul untuk menyelamatkan diri dari luberan lumpur yang terus memenuhi badan jalan. Dia tak menyangka, justru di tanggul tersebut beberapa saat kemudian, terjadi ledakan yang jauh lebih dahsyat. "Saat itu, tanggul terasa bergerak," ungkapnya.

Namun, Cipto terus berlari menjauh dari pusat semburan ke arah barat menuju Desa Siring. Selang beberapa waktu kemudian, terjadi ledakan tepat di belakangnya. Hanya berjarak sekitar 10 meter. "Saya sempat terjatuh, lantas merayap di tebing tanggul bagian dalam pond Siring," jelasnya.

Saat berdiri kembali dan melanjutkan berlari, punggungnya terasa sangat panas. Namun, Cipto terus berlari hingga akhirnya sampai di Desa Siring. Dia selamat.

Saat berhenti tersebut, dia baru teringat dua rekannya yang lain, Pulung dan John Dachtar. "Saya sempat melihat Pulung masih mengambil gambar. Tapi, setelah saya teriyaki, dia pun ikut lari menjauh," katanya.

Menurut Cipto, kali terakhir sebelum berhasil menyelamatkan diri, dia melihat John Dachtar di dalam mobil. "Saat itu saya tidak yakin dia bisa selamat," ungkapnya. Cipto beranggapan, rekannya itu telah terjebak di antara dua titik aliran lumpur dari tanggul.

Namun, keberuntungan ternyata masih berpihak pada John. Saat ditemui Jawa Pos di RSUD Sidoarjo, lelaki asal Bandung itu mengakui bahwa mobil yang dia naiki hanyut terbawa banjir lumpur ke arah utara menuju pond A.

"Saya berusaha tenang saat mobil yang saya naiki tiba-tiba jalan sendiri," kisahnya. Saat itu, menurut dia, ketinggian lumpur sekitar 2 meter. Namun, setelah melihat beberapa pohon di sisi tol, dia memutuskan segera keluar dari mobil.

"Saya lalu berenang 20 meter," ungkapnya. Beruntung, lumpur belum panas sehingga dia bisa mencapai pohon dan memanjat sampai atas.

Setelah beberapa waktu, dia mengira ada tanggul tak jauh dari pohon tempat dia mengamankan diri. "Saya turun kembali untuk mencapainya," tuturnya. Namun, ternyata lumpur di bawahnya panas karena campuran lumpur dari pusat semburan sudah lebih banyak.

"Itu yang membuat kaki saya seperti terbakar," jelasnya. Dia pun mengurungkan niatnya dan naik kembali ke atas pohon.

Setelah bantuan penyelamatan datang, posisi John akhirnya diketahui. Namun, dia tetap sulit diselamatkan karena lokasinya sulit dijangkau. Perahu karet yang berusaha mendekat akhirnya mengurungkan niatnya karena khawatir leleh.

Sempat ada niat untuk mengevakuasi pria 51 tahun itu dengan helikopter. "Tapi, itu baru bisa dilakukan pagi, kalau dipaksakan malam terlalu berbahaya," jelas petugas penyelamat saat itu.

Setelah berjam-jam di atas pohon, sekitar pukul 04.00 beberapa warga sekitar berhasil menolongnya dengan menggunakan beberapa ban bekas. Namun, dia harus dirawat karena menderita beberapa luka bakar di kaki dan tangannya.

Berbeda dengan Cipto dan John Dachtar, Stefanus Prasetyo, 52, karyawan PT Jasa Marga, tidak seberuntung mereka. Setelah sehari dinyatakan hilang, Stefanus ditemukan tewas tadi malam, pukul 20.30. Jenazahnya tersangkut pada sebuah pohon di pond A Desa Kedungbendo, Kecamatan Tanggulangin. Saat ditemukan, tubuh pria berpostur tinggi itu mengenakan jaket kulit dan seragam biru tenggelam dalam genangan lumpur.

Padahal, sore sebelum terjadi ledakan, Stefanus bersama Kepala PT Jasa Marga Cabang Surabaya-Gempol Subakti Syukur mendampingi pejabat dari Mabes TNI-AD untuk melihat bencana lumpur Lapindo. Waktu itu, Stefanus menepuk pundak salah seorang wartawan dan mengucapkan salam dengan nada akrab. "Good bye my friend. Jalan tol sudah tidak dapat dipakai lagi," katanya.

Tak pernah ada yang menduga ucapan itu adalah salam terakhir almarhum. Selama terjadi tragedi lumpur, Stefanus dikenal sangat rajin turun ke lapangan. Dengan jabatannya sebagai Kasubbag Pelayanan Lalu Lintas Jalan Tol, peran dia begitu penting. Nyaris setiap waktu dia berada di jalan tol dengan mobil station yang kemarin juga tenggelam di dalam lumpur.

Subakti Syukur, atasan Stefanus, tampak begitu gugup dengan nasib salah seorang anak buahnya itu. Hingga Kamis dini hari, Subakti masih ingin melihat Stefanus diselamatkan dari lokasi lumpur. Jeritan minta tolong di tengah malam juga sempat dikira suara Stefanus.

Currently feeling: sympathetic

I'm oh-so-dreaming to move to Korea...Of course before that, I must survey the place first to confirm my decision heheh...by travelling there *_____* I'm also wondering when will this obsession ever finish? It's as if there's no end to the goodness of Korean drama, Korean music, Korean variety shows, and the language...Almost every a few months, a new drama appear and catch my attention...with as creative plot and script-writing as ever...geez...I even speak and understand the language like 10 times faster and with distinctly better pronounciation than Chinese...I'm so wishing that I was a Korean rather than a Chinese born in Indonesia...

I know I sound so unloyal to my own country...but I guess I never really have a national identity anywhere anyway...as a Chinese Indo...slalu main sama anak2 Chinese Indo jg...didiskriminasikan oleh bbrp org Indo asli yg kurang berpendidikan dan sempit pikirannya...dan tidak bisa berbahasa Chinese dengan baik :s

Currently feeling: dreamy

by Gregory Koukl:

One question frequently stops Christians in their tracks: "If the Gospel alone saves, then what about the heathen in Africa who never heard?" Can God justly convict a man who hasn't heard about Jesus? Some people hear the Gospel and reject it, but most never hear it. How can God condemn them? Christians are ill-equipped to respond because they don't really understand something vital about sin and mercy. Sin brings guilt. Mercy is a gift. Anyone who is a sinner receives punishment he deserves. Anyone who is saved receives mercy he does not deserve and which is not owed him. Think of this question: How could the sheriff send anyone to jail if he didn't offer him a pardon first? The answer is simple. If he's guilty, the sheriff is justified in throwing him in jail. There is no obligation to offer a pardon to a guilty man. The same is true of God. He can justly convict a man who has broken His law even though the sinner has heard nothing about God's pardon in Jesus. God owes no one salvation. He can offer it to whomever He wishes. That's why it's called grace.

Critanya Ardi nanya aku karena ada org2 di forum scienceandphilosophy yang bertanya, dan mrk berusaha menjatuhkan kekristenan...mereka berbackground atheist gt...Aku bingung, gmn cara bantunya, akhirnya tanya ke Adi K...untunglah dia akhirnya ketemu jawabannya. I hope it helps and can be a blessing to ppl who read this

Currently feeling: happy

In no specific order...the greatests of all kdramas I've watched...and that means they're addictive...so beware :D
1. Delightful Girl Choon Hyang/Sassy Girl Choon Hyang
2. My Girl
3. Which Star are You From?
4. Fantasy Couple/Couple or Trouble
5. Sweet 18
6. Goong/Princess Hours/Imperial Palace

OK, that means the plot is relatively good but with low level of addictivity:
1. Great Inheritance/Kindergarten Love
2. Full House
3. Vineyard Man
4. My Love Patzzi (first kdrama I watched)
5. My Name is Kim Sam Soon

Bad...that means don't watch unless you're prepared to stop in the middle of the series
1. Love Story in Harvard (watched till ep. 10 and couldn't manage to continue due to dragginess )

more coming soon: What's Up, Fox?; Soulmate (I think it's going to be listed on top...subs aren't out yet ), Bad Family

Currently feeling: hyper