http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LSxoEZuixIo

Kim Jong Kook - One Man

One of my fave songs from Kim Jong Kook, he's such a legendary talented Korean singer...started his career in around 1998 being in Turbo, a duo vocalist/rapper.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VbA9olUFuVg

Tony An - Yuchutprakachia

Judulnya boleh gak jelas, tapi lagunya keren deh...R&B gt, lagu barunya Tony An, an ex-member of H.O.T. Sayang suaranya kayaknya agak gak nyampek di nada2 yang super tinggi, atau emang nadanya dibuat nanggung gt yak tauk deh...

Currently listening to: Tony An - Yuchutprakachia
Currently feeling: fine

1 Corinthians 13:4-8a

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails...

It's just not it between the two of us...We have different principles in mind, I try my best to follow the Bible, yet you follow human principle. I cannot accept this...I will still be your friend, but not your lover anymore...Mianhamnida...

Currently feeling: okay

belakangan ini pengen nulis blog sih, cuman terlalu banyak hal yang terjadi, jadi saya sendiri jg bingung mau mulai dr mana...

1. Tentang richard...gak tau deh ending filmnya gimana...harus bikin keputusan minimal pas dia ada di sini...dan dia bakal ada stay 2 bln di sg...ke sg lagi tgl 17 juli, apa masih mo dirayain nih perpisahannya?

2. Tentang office life, seneng sih, bisa lebih kenal sama temen2 applied chem yang sama2 kerja bareng aku. Ada 1 co cakep dan 1 ce biasa aja yang jadi deket hehehe...liat aja perkembangannya gmn tar rada risih kalo ber3 sama mrk, jadi obat nyamuk kesannya, mana sy gak bs bhs mandarin lg -_-' merasa dibodohin, this is what I hate by being an Indonesian Chinese...and I don't think I can learn Chinese fully in this life time...maybe in heaven later on? If God permits

Aku juga jadi deket sama semacem seniorku gt deh, lab technician, namanya Khoo Li Hua, yang semula aku pikir jutek abis. Jutek sih iya, kasar juga, orgnya supeeeeerrrr clean deh. Berhubung aku totally the opposite, yeah, agak2 gmn jg mulanya kata dia biar this experience at the lab mold me hehehe kayak orang Kristen aja ngmgnya...ternyata dia baek deh, kayaknya uda dlm usia nikah tp belom ada pasangan, jadi rada2 aneh gt...(apa aku bakal gt ya laen kali ? tauk ah...) tapi li hua cukup care orgnya, sangat menekankan safety, dan nyuruh aku lunch pas lagi sibuk2nya...hari tersibuk sepanjang sejarah aku kerja di rhodia.

Tadi juga ketemu anak yg diterima kerja di Akzo Nobel, ternyata disana nganggur abis dan gak ada projectnya, cuma sbg customer support aja...dlm hati mikir, untung dulu saya gak diterima kerja di sana. Puji Tuhan deh, that job is not meant for me...cos I want to learn while working, meskipun gaji biasa2 aja besarnya.

3. Lagi nonton film Korea, judulnya My Girl (Mai Geol kalo di"hangeul"-in). Bagus deh, critanya ttg cewek cakep yang miskin, terus mata duitan dan suka bohong demi kepentingan sendiri pada mulanya. Penasaran akhirnya dia berubah apa kaga Lucu banget filmnya, gak kalah lucu dr Full House deh...

4. Bahasa Korea itu...susah...gak familiar sih...gak kayak Chinese...Skrg kuakui gimana2 tetep aja terpengaruh krn keluarga di Indo jg sering ngmg Chinese meskipun amburadul Chinese-nya org Surabaya. Jadi lebih gampangan Chinese buat aku. Cuman sistem alphabet Korea lumayan simpel...meski speed bacaku masih sangat rendah kayak 15 detik per suku kata gt Dlm bhs Korea gak ada tones, sesuatu yang kubenci banget dr Chinese maupun Cantonese (9 tones what the ???). Jadi tinggal meng-imitate bhs Korea di film2 gt udah cukup mirip tone-nya hehehe but I still love the language...Juh a yo (baca: juayo) (L) !!

5. Lagi baca "Celebration of Discipline" by Richard Foster. Bagus banget sih, banyak hal2 yang sebelumnya aku gak tahu, jadi terbukakan setelah membacanya, meski ada jg hal yang gak aku setujui, macem cara berpakaian harus simpel lah...gak boleh banyak ornamen. enak aja die...emang orang gak boleh punya sense keindahan apa?! yah cuma itu aja si sementara ini, baru baca 4 chapter...intro, meditation, prayer, dan simplicity.

Currently feeling: okay

It's My Girl, another kdrama....also brought from a man hwa with the same title...quite original in term of storyline I think. Here's a MV of the theme song, enjoy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yb4vj-nsaF4

Currently listening to: mario & nesta - never say goodbye
Currently feeling: energetic

1. Daisy-ssi kwenchanayo (is ok)  Rasanya aku menikmati banget kejombloanku yang agak2 baru ini...I want to spend more time, to know more about God's calling in my life, to know more about my friends, to learn more about many new things, including all biblical things

2. Akhir2 ini banyak ntn drama, banyak escapism, sering2 gak mau pulang PGP, takut sepi sendiri di kamar, sering ke harborfront...Jadi rada2 addicted to Shih Lin Taiwanese street snacks

3. Hampir habis membaca Celebration of Discipline, gara2 masih sering banyak waktu luang di kantor. Kalo ada uang, bener2 worth it untuk dikoleksi banyak banget hal yang bs me-remind dan meng-enlighten kita. Bagi yang belum pernah baca, buku ini isinya ada 3 bagian: kayak spiritual/inner discipline gt, terus outward discipline (ttg karakter2 kt jg), dan terakhir corporate discipline (disiplin persekutuan). Cuman ada comment sedikit, yang bagian discipline of worship, bener2 karismatik banget...well cuman segt aja sih komennya, no offence

Currently feeling: okay

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hJibqT47hSA

nice video clip, Jasmine Liang Jing Ru - Ming Ming Hen Ai Ni ^_^

Currently feeling: rejuvenated

This era...I think this could very well be the beginning of those days approaching. I'm afraid all of us...will be those who must persevere during those days of suffering. I'm even almost convicted about my charismatic friend's pastor's prophecy. She told me that something was going to happen to Indonesia at around 2005...and until now the earthquakes and tsunamis are still going on...it's going more and more terrible from day to day...Even more convincing since this was told by Jesus himself in the Gospel...for us to keep watching for the signs and stay alert as the day is approaching...

If tsunami really hit the big cities in Indonesia...including Surabaya, Jakarta, etc, I doubt if all Indonesians would still stay the same as now...Something is really happening...God must be up to something...with all these natural disasters happening, including those happening in China...I remember that my highschool friend also did mention about China...

On another note, I received a piece of paper containing announcement from PGP Management Office just now after I went home from Westpeak. I thought I was going to be expelled from my current room in PGP tmr...moreover I got nobody to help me move out...but I think I'll still be given this room since the new room is not ready for check-in due to conference. I hope it will be right. I complaint a bit at first, then after I read all those happenings...I really think I had no right to complain at all about my case...I'm indeed speechless...

Currently feeling: shocked

as we all are getting older, getting into post-adolescence age, it's getting harder and harder to really love a member of the opposite sex truthfully and sincerely...We're getting more and more perfectionist as we're getting older I guess...getting more and more cautious in our steps because of what we have experienced before...

I thought I would like to try to find someone with similar hobbies and outlook of life as mine...but I realized now...that it's not easy...

HTS-an salah di mata org laen...in a relationship salah juga kalo emang blm siap...ah...emang lebih baek single aja...

Currently listening to: Tony An - Yuchuprakachia
Currently feeling: relaxed

Perhaps Love - HowL & J 

I don't remember when it happened.
I'd get dizzy just thinking about you.
Because my thoughts kept stretching, my heart was surprised.
It's a little awkward that I keep saying to you that "it's nothing"
and that "my heart's just trifling"

Is this love? And if you feel the same way, is this the beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you and the more the world listens
the louder it yells it.
Why is it just now that I hear it?
That the love has found us so we might be together.

Even if I try to explain my feelings, the only true way to understand
would be to become me and feel them.
I'm already inside of you, just how you're inside of me.
I don't know if we've gotten used to the meaning between us.

Is this love? And if you feel the same way, is this the beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you and the more the world listens
the louder it yells it.
Why is it just now that I hear it?
That the love has found us so we might be together.

Now that I think about it, there were so many moments of fluttering.
I'll make up for all the time lost.

I'll be with you and give you only good memories,
so in return you can't leave me.
Even the slightest moments make me feel uneasy
Stay with me

I'm loving you (until then)
like this (only you) already

Currently feeling: okay

Guys & girls, except for graz of course , if you're free, try to take a look at this article...then tell me your comments

http://www.boundless.org/1999/departments/beyond_buddies/a0000051.html

Currently feeling: sleepy

Kemaren saya denger dr seorang temen, critanya ada seorg co dan ce...kata dia, "Kalo emang kedua belah pihak udah menyatakan saling suka, lebih baik jadian aja drpd HTS-an, kecuali HTS nya bisa dlm batas2 tertentu." Menurut gw ya...kalo memutuskan untuk jadian berdasarkan infatuation doang, kekaguman semata2 yang gak realistis krn blm mengetahui kelemahan2 kedua belah pihak...this might lead your relationship to the graveyard later on...it's really 10 times better to build up a "HTS" slowly in the appropriate limits than to rush in a relationship.

I think to know each other before stepping into a relationship takes time...it can't be just in a few months or weeks...it really takes time before both sides can reveal all their weaknesses to each other. It takes time to realize....to forgive & accept (well, if possible)...and to try to build each other. I don't think trying to fix each other's weaknesses really works. In reality, habits and characters which have been developed since we were small probably can be changed if God's grace really allows it...but still it is a process, and usually a long term one.

In my next relationship...IF there is really going to be one...ever, I'd want to know that person well enough (enough to know his strengths and weaknesses) before I step into a serious relationship...

P.S. PGP is really getting on my nerves...now they tell me I can only move to my new room, earliest on Wednesday this whole check-out check-in thing is really making ppl cry tears and blood...

Currently feeling: tired

Ya Tuhan...Engkau yang tahu apa yang sedang kuhadapi saat ini...betapa busuknya diriku ini...Oh Tuhan...biarlah aku boleh berjalan bersama2 dengan Engkau di dalam hal ini juga...Thank you, Lord...

Currently feeling: worried

huhu diteror freshman satu anak...diajakin chat terus...huhuhu....gak jawab jg gak enak...tapi daku kan capek abis kerja...huhuhuhu, almost cannot get up tadi  tiduran bntr :| project udah mulai, mulai bakal dikudain kayaknya...hiks. 

Currently feeling: tired

My new fave song, "Saying I Love You"...the MV got my fave actress from Goong, Yoon Eun Hye. The song is sung by Kim Jong Kook, a famous singer rumoured to be her boyfriend They have always been coupled up on X-man the gameshow.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zsW3D3z140g

Currently feeling: content

When I was reading this, I thought the interpretation was not so responsible since the author was just picking up not even 1 whole verse. But, I agree with his opinion in this matter...this could very well be how God works in our lives... 

July 29, 2006

Do You See Jesus in Your Clouds?

Behold, He is coming with clouds . . . —Revelation 1:7 

In the Bible clouds are always associated with God. Clouds are the sorrows, sufferings, or providential circumstances, within or without our personal lives, which actually seem to contradict the sovereignty of God. Yet it is through these very clouds that the Spirit of God is teaching us how to walk by faith. If there were never any clouds in our lives, we would have no faith. "The clouds are the dust of His feet" ( Nahum 1:3  . They are a sign that God is there. What a revelation it is to know that sorrow, bereavement, and suffering are actually the clouds that come along with God! God cannot come near us without clouds— He does not come in clear-shining brightness.

It is not true to say that God wants to teach us something in our trials. Through every cloud He brings our way, He wants us to unlearn something. His purpose in using the cloud is to simplify our beliefs until our relationship with Him is exactly like that of a child— a relationship simply between God and our own souls, and where other people are but shadows. Until other people become shadows to us, clouds and darkness will be ours every once in a while. Is our relationship with God becoming more simple than it has ever been?

There is a connection between the strange providential circumstances allowed by God and what we know of Him, and we have to learn to interpret the mysteries of life in the light of our knowledge of God. Until we can come face to face with the deepest, darkest fact of life without damaging our view of God’s character, we do not yet know Him.

". . . they were fearful as they entered the cloud" (Luke 9:34). Is there anyone except Jesus in your cloud? If so, it will only get darker until you get to the place where there is "no one anymore, but only Jesus . . ." (Mark 9:8 ; also see Mark 2-7  .

Currently feeling: tired

I can fall in love again right? It is not wrong if I fall in love again, right? I surely have the right to do so. I wish someone would understand my position at this moment...