- Semalem gak bs tidur sampe jam 2 gara2 dirubung nyamuk dan kepanasan. Uda panik, sampe sms abonk tengah mlm apakah mungkin ada tmpt kosong di westpeak, ternyata gak ada jawabannya.

- Masuk pagi2, dibrief bentar sama supervisor sy, Dr. Michael Liu. Orgnya baek si keliatannya, dia jg yg plg 'merawat' anak didiknya di antara supervisor2 yang laen. Kasian Su Ann, supervisornya baru dtg minggu depan. Diajak tur keliling Rhodia, liat2 labnya, equipment2nya, gak nyangka, gedhe jg ternyata. Temboknya warna biru gt, mendukung suasana kerja. Suka banget tempatnya, acnya super dingin dan nyaman, kayaknya aku masih milih tidur di sana drpd di kamarku skrg. Asli kayak gudang. Di sana kayaknya aku bakal se-cubicle sama Zhong Qin, yang baru dtg tgl 20 nanti. Gak dikasi pake komputer hiks T__T tp bole bawa notebook dan ktnya sih bs diset-upin internetnya kalo mau.

- Terus disuruh baca report th lalu. Haiz, 71 halaman plus data & patents!! Researchnya ttg water-borne anti-corrosive coating. Menarik2...berguna untuk mankind dan environment Aku suka...Dasar emang aku dasarnya orang pragmatis kok Setengah mati sih bacanya, hampir full tulisan ttg teorinya dan discussions gt. Jg catetin poin2 penting dr sana stl selesai baca, aku kira bakal kepake di research th ini, ternyata...ntar d aku bilangin... 

- Tunggu sampe jam 11.30, tiba2 disuru Ms Vivian Wee, HRnya Rhodia pergi makan siang. Dianterin colleague2 yang hampir seumuran dg kita, 3 org, namanya Kelvin Ho, Rong Er, sama cewek gt, senyum terus orgnya, namanya aneh, dengernya sih Mie Li gt...baru tau ternyata di Science Park 2 ada 2 canteen, hari ini kita ke 1 kantin, besok katanya mo diajak ke kantin satunya lg. Cuman, sayangnya, ada 1 colleague yang namanya Khoo Li Hua, cewek, jutek banget, sama bos jg berani gt, apalg sama colleague yang setingkatan atau kita2. Dia 1 department sama aku lg, di Polymer System & Specialties...di bawah supervisorku jg...dan duduk pas di dpn cubicleku berhadap2an...haiz...

- Jam 2.30 kita dibriefing bntr sama Ms Vivian ttg safety terus dikenalin satu2 gitu sama semua colleague dan bos yang ada di sana. Ms Vivian ternyata sabar banget yak, hehe.

- Nunggu sampe jam 5 an, karena dr tadi kata supervisorku kalo mo nanya, nanya aja, akhirnya aku datengin dia stl selesai baca reportnya. Ternyata yang dulu bikin project itu sejak th 2000 bukan dia, dia baru kerja tahun ini :s Dan projectnya...eng ing eng...gak pake bahan dan teori polymer yang sama, udah susah2 nyatet gt...untungnya, konon ktnya sih lebih simpel. Lalu disodor2in paper2 gak jelas gt dan dibilangin sori dia lagi sibuk :s Besok atau minggu depan mungkin dia bakal kasi presentasi singkat mengenai projectnya dia bilang.

- First-day impression, so far so good :D I'm enjoying it, I think it would probably be more focused and more enjoyable than school...but I shall see later on Thanks God

P.S. I'm worried about perl, after my comment of letting loose and to  just let her get to know the boy first for longer time, perhaps it could really be God's plan for her...then I came to encounter this book which is just against relationship of believer-non believer. Moreover, it includes the detail for those who're engaged by tradition to a non-believer...and the book then quotes Jesus's words yang "Barangsiapa tidak lebih mengasihi Aku daripada ibu, bapak, suami, anak, dll, mrk tidak layak mengikut Aku." Deggg...langsung gak enak pek...oh well...I hope perl just won't make sudden commitments before I can hand her the book...

Currently feeling: content

To be with a guy who doesn't have the same values as I do is such a turn-off. The last time I had a crush on this cute guy who swears a few times and gambled just a bit (yea...when I'm already in uni...don't tell Richard it's over already haha), I was turned off. When I was in highschool, I wouldn't have a care...I liked a guy who is hella lazy (up until now as far I've heard from his current classmate, and he has moved from computer science to marketing due to his very low grade, until now still got IP 1 point something..) and only can spend his parents' money as he comes from a rich family. I liked him for 2 years. Damn, I was blind and he toyed with my feelings.

To tell you the truth, to be with a man/woman who just will not fear God as much as we fear Him would be very much a turn-off. That's it...unless...you just don't care about God and you would be ok living side-by-side with sin.

Currently feeling: sleepy

Ah daripada post entries yang serius terus, tar dikirain aku org yang serius banget lg, padahal nggak tuh  uda lama aku pengen mempromosikan Korean culture melalui blog ini...tar kalo aku dah mulai belajar bahasanya lebih lanjut akan aku kasi cth2 lewat blog ini k :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UvTrbYP2wlk

Link di atas itu music videonya "Parrot" atau "Aeng mu sae (baca: engmuse)" by Howl, salah satu soundtracknya Goong/Princess Hours/Imperial Household yang mnrtku berkesan banget :D Coba aja klik...berikut romanization & translation lirik lagunya:

03. Engmuse
romanization by: Sabby ~NBK~ (also credit: aheeyah.com)

To ojechorom dashi guribsumnida
bogo shiphun mam juljido anunji
jakkuman gudega to orumnida

Hearyo bolsurog do nunmulnamnida
humchyone bwado hurunun nunmure
giogi to darun gioguro bonjyo
aphuge nal ullimnida

Badungodman issoso negen huhoepuninde
junge obnun nal guden to ijulka gobina

Saranghamnida nan nan saranghamnida
gudeyege beun manhgo manhun maldul junge
i marhana ibborudchorom na
jungolgorimnida honja babochorom
mianhamnida cham cham mianhamnida
dwinujun i malkaji mianhajiman
yomchiobshi gudel gidarimnida
hengyo neirun doraolka

Guderan sejangi bijobgin hessodo
johassumnida hengboghessumnida
ibyorul mollatdon yongwonul midotdon gunallo na kumerado

Doragalsu itdamyon ne maumul moaso
ne gasumul doroso da guderul jultende

Saranghamnida nan nan saranghamnida
gudeyege beun manhgo manhun maldul junge
i marhana ibborudchorom na
jungolgorimnida honja babochorom
mianhamnida cham cham mianhamnida
dwinujun i malkaji mianhajiman
yomchiobshi gudel gidarimnida
hengyo neirun doraolka

I maum
kuthne guden molla olsu obsodo
gudega byonhe donunnan anirado
bullobogo dashi bullobomnida
engmusechorom gude irum
gude sarangman irohge

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03. Parrot
translation by: Jungie (also credit: aheeyah.com)

I miss you again, like yesterday.
Won't this feeling of missing you, lessen any?
I keep thinking about you.

The more I try to sort through it all, the more the tears come.
Even when I try to steal it, the memories spread into
different memories through the tears that I shed.
It makes me cry so painfully.

All I can do is regret, because all I ever did was receive.
But I'm afraid you'll forget me because I've never gave you anything.

I love you, I, I love you
These words have become a habit
and these words are among the many I've learned from you.
I sit around alone mumbling to myself like a fool.
I'm sorry truly, truly, I'm sorry.
I'm even sorry that these words are so late
But I'm waiting here for you shamelessly
Will you by chance come back tomorrow?

Even if the birdcage that represented you was narrow
I still liked it, I was still happy.
I'm returning to the day, to my dreams
when I believed in a forever without seperation

If I could go back I'd gather my heart, I'd take everything
from it and give it you.

I love you, I, I love you
These words have become a habit
and these words are among the many I've learned from you.
I sit around alone mumbling to myself like a fool.
I'm sorry truly, truly, I'm sorry.
I'm even sorry that these words are so late
But I'm waiting here for you shamelessly
Will you by chance come back tomorrow?

My heart..
In the end even if you can't come
and you've changed and I'm not the one for you any longer
I'll call and call out to you again
Like a parrot calling only your name..
Wishing for only your love like this.

Enjoy the song

Currently feeling: nostalgic

aaaaaaaaaaa tepar tepar tepar

Thank God it's Friday :D

Berhubung terlalu nganggur, tidak ada atasan yang bs "digangguin", tertidur di office, diomongin satu kantor, although sumber gosipnya adalah bos Rhodia yang kemungkinan besar tidak hafal nama saya Lalu...kok keliatannya malah positif efeknya, jadi dikasi kerjaan hehe Akhirnya tadi supervisor saya kasi saya presentasi ttg projectnya...yang bikin cat acrylic buat anticorrosive itu...dia jadi kayak lecturer aja...tapi supervisor saya bakal away 1 mg next week T________T akankah saya ngangguuuuur lg? Will start the project next next week...Hopefully it's gonna be fun :D

Psst...alhasil, temen2 saya yang jg totally nganggur, ikut2an dibriefing supervisornya jg...karena bos Rhodia yang namanya Richard Seow (pertama kali ketemu gak keliatan seremnya, skrg ini aja baru ketauan, jadi skrg mengerti sudah knp tiap hr dia bakal kelilingan meja kami2 ) ini e-mail semua bawahannya ttg kejadian ini...sungguh memalukan bukan? haha don't care lar, yang penting efeknya untuk sementara ini bagus. Dan...no way I dare to do even just one more time

Currently feeling: tired

Berikut adalah keadaan akhir2 ini yang terjadi pada Daisy S:

1. Rasanya proyek pengurusan badan agak gagal berhubung setiap kali mau berolahraga selalu ada halangan, padahal seandainya saya kurus, tinggi badan saya memungkinkan saya menjadi seorang catwalk model...becanda deh...

2. Akhir2 ini bener2 menjadi seorang hallyu addict, alias korean addict. Pokoknya apa2 aja deh yang serba korea, gak peduli drama, lagu2, gameshow (XMan dan Love Letter), saya pasti jadi ketagihan abis Sehari bisa luangin waktu 3 jeman nontonin begituan di Youtube...haiz...and I've got an excuse for it, bcos such things help me to escape from reality for a while...and the loneliness of living in this room. And, truth is...it doesn't help me at all as a whole. It has some negative impact to my life.

3. I really miss the one that love me, and I cannot meet him. You know who lar...I sometimes think how lonely I would be if he can't stay in Singapore...because from the very start of my life in NUS, I've spent it with him mostly...bahkan kita jadian kan bulan Oktober 2004 gt...because of that I don't really have too many good friends in NUS. Believe it or not, that's the fact. Dan sekarang terjadilah dilema ttg tawaran kerja Kalbe Farma di Jkt untuk research apa gt buat dia. I know...it's probably not so easy to get a proper lifescience-related job for lifescience graduates here. Because the number of their students is very high every year, but the number of lifescience employment available is quite low...so the competition must be really tough. 

4. I really wish I could survive staying in this type C room for a while. Cos it sucks...especially the toilet...it's not designed for girls. There should be at least one shower room with a toilet bowl in it, stupid...Damn. It's very hard to stay here. And counting from now...I still have 37 more days to stay here. *faint*

Currently feeling: moody

I'm really afraid...

What will the heroine of a drama do at a time like this ? If it turns out that our paths will be different...then...should we do long distance relationship (path A)? But will the feelings stay the same? Will we still be able to communicate well eventhough our environments will be completely different?

But if I choose the other path, path B, to be single again...will I be able to forget him? What if I compare other guys to him? What if I cannot forget him for years?

If I choose path C, to obstruct him from working in Jkt...then I'd probably ruin a person's destiny. I don't want to do that also...

Oh God, please tell me what to do in a situation like this...

Currently feeling: distressed

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=glef1XK4rak

Nice music video "Grace" by Lee Soo Young...I'm so in like with Fly to the Sky, Lee Soo Young, and Lee Seung Ki.

Currently feeling: sleepy

Do u guys know that Richard is going to work in Jakarta after he graduates? And...I choose path A a.k.a. to have a long distance relationship with him. I know this is not going to be easy, there're going to be trials and temptations along the way. But I can't let go of this relationship anyway, and neither can he. Since God has blessed this relationship so much, and let it stay strong until now, I think this must be part of His plan for both of us. Whoaa suddenly this just sounds like the "woo-ing" part in X-man's dangyunhaji/of course game :D haha

I've been trying to escape myself from this fact, but I must face it. Strange indeed, I don't feel any sadness anymore...I feel that I have to face it bravely, optimistically, and cheerfully This is so unlike the Daisy we all know last sem right?

And I hope I will stay cheerful like this this year

Currently listening to: Turbo - December
Currently feeling: kwenchana!

EXPLANATION ABOUT THE SHOW:

SBS Real Situation Sunday (previously known as Real Situation Saturday) is one of the most popular variety programs shown every Sunday @ 1840hrs (GMT +9) on SBS television channel. It comprises of 2 segments, namely finding of the X-man and the roundly & roundly segment (previously Banjun dramas). X-Man normally broadcast part 1 in one week and then the 2nd part in the following week.

Simply put, X-Man is a program which sees the participants attempting to pick out the "mole" (X-Man) planted by the PD. The participants are divided into 2 teams, Kang team and Lee team led by Kang Ho Dong and Lee Hyuk Jaek respectively. The "mole" (X-Man) will be picked during a selection process and informed through the telephone by the PD. After the selection, the teams will then face off against each other in a series of games. The task of the X-Man is thus to disrupt his team performance and aslo try to influence his team to lose the game. But whilst doing all that, the X-Man must not be discovered, only then will it be a success.

The program which debuted in 2004 and is now into its 2nd year. The process of hunting down the X-Man has got many Koreans (including those from overseas) very excited. Among the many popular game segments like Horse game, Na La Ra FlyPan game, the most notable and famous segment belongs to the Dangyunhaji (Of Course) game.

The game sees each team sending a member against another member respectively. And then they will pose questions that mostly centers around their character. The member who answers the question must answer Dangyunhaji no matter how the question attacks him/her. This segment normally draws the most laughs as well and artistes suffers a lot here. The female artistes have it easier here because the most likely question they get from male artistes is, "do you like me?" or similar questions. Male artistes have it worse especially when guys face up against guys. Who can forget about the infamous porn cd incident involving Shin Jung Hwan and Kim Dong Wan (Shinhwa) and Andy (Shinhwa) having to accept the fact from JUNJIN that his body is the worse among Shinhwa members. 

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Best players ever: Yoon eun hye & Kim Jong Kook (mascot xman season 1, I really think they might be a couple IRL), Lee Soo Young (calmest dangyunhaji queen ever, adore her uniquely funny style), Kim Jong Min (goofy boy), Lee Sung Jin (the angry boy, especially with Bada around of course), jung mahl (really)...xman's not complete without them & MC YOO (the best gameshow's MC EVER) hehe

Nice players: Park Kyung Lim (rugged woman haha at first I thought she was a guy), Lee Seung Ki (penyanyi dg gaya dance 'love bullet'nya), Chae Yeon (ce xman paling genit, slalu dijodohin sama seung ki, padahal dia jauh lebih tua), Kang Ho Dong (udah mascot nih, sejak jaman xman season 1 uda ada...), Brian FTTS (dengan musical 'A Whole New World' dan niruin partner FTTSnya, Hwan Hee), Park myung soo (yang slalu musuhan sama lee sung jin)  

Berikut link ke salah 1 episode favorit, liat aja gaya dancenya lee soo young yang 0_o...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e4VEOO0vHm8

Dan salah 1 bagian dangyunhaji di mana lee soo young vs brian:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rkIYXZpcbTM

Currently listening to: xman's dance battle game theme song
Currently feeling: relaxed

will she give up because of emulsion polymerization? Because she will have to set up everything from start until end by herself, will she give up? NO! Eventhough she's always been weak in mechanical stuffs (dealing with nuts and bolts, glasswares, etc)...she will not give up. Because, there must be God's plan in putting her in Rhodia, and in this polymer system specialties department...

From difficulties in life, eventually we'll learn something important

I'll try my best and I believe my hope in God won't be put down in the end...

Currently feeling: energetic

loneliness starts to hit me again...this morning before I went to work, someone asked me about Richard, whether I was shocked or not...heck...of course, but what can I do anyway? Nobody can take his place in my life...and it's different when it's a long distance relationship like this of course. I still have 5 more years in Singapore to go...I really dunno...I dun feel moving back to Indo afterwards also...cos it's not easy to get a good chemistry job in indo...and I don't like having someone else dictating my life path...well let me just go with the flow...and to live life cheerfully at the moment

last sem I was dealing with public speaking, and also to lead a big group of people namely the camp committee...I also dealt with a lot of burden in my study. Every week had to make either 1-2 lab reports. Every week's timetable is from 27-34 hours of school. I dunno how I successfully dealt with all those impossible things. It must be really God's work...cos I know how weak I am actually...

This sem I have to deal with something more about emotions and career path and more serious lifepath-determining stuffs...well work is also included but that's another story. Now I don't have anybody I can really depend on...to come and talk to me whenever I'm in trouble or lagi ngedrop...hanya Tuhanlah satu2nya penghiburan bagiku...memang, seharusnya begitu...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCU-Nk_3k94

Currently watching: the video from the link above, Fly to the Sky - Pi (Blood) video clip. Enjoy...

P.S. When I said I like "Like a Man", it's not true, the FTTS songs I like are this one and "Goodbye". A remake version of All 4 One's "Not Ready for Goodbye", but the newer one is really better hehehe but listening to the song even makes me sadder...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iqnFPd_kYm4

Currently feeling: melancholy

buat yang lagi bosen, bisa check out these videos...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aijxnPN9-9A

Bada - VIP, ini Bada/Sea-nya S.E.S bagi kalian yg mungkin tau. Dulu S.E.S salah 1 grp cewek Korea yang cukup terkenal. Tapi mukanya Bada kok jadi beda jauh ya...emang jadi lebih cakep seh I luv her voice...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kuK8E9njzNU

OST Legend of Seven Cutter, Rich - All For You. Yang main filmnya Yoon Eun Hye, main di Goong juga. I love her acting. Kayaknya filmnya yg ini lucu juga deh. Benernya pengen ntn T__T gak bs download dr www.silentregrets.com lg seh kayaknya diblokir sama NUS

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEbg3FMg8BI

Turbo - December. Yang nyanyi ada Kim Jong Kook nya X-man, yang suaranya tinggi tuh. I like Turbo and this song...uda lama banget, denger2 th 1998 gt era backstreet boys yah...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tPRZD2SCIrc

Brown Eyes - Already One Year. This was like the first Korean song I like ever...it's really really good, and the video clip's plot is also quite touching. Ada lanjutannya di lagu lain, tp endingnya jelek...lagunya Brown Eyes lainnya yang bagus, With Coffee, tp clipnya aneh banget de.

Kemaren pas denger kotbah Pak Sutjipto di persekutuan pemuda grjku...dikasi tau sedikit kiat2 pacaran...meskipun bukan dlm rangka itu sebenernya. Dia sebut ada gaya pacaran 'haha hihi' yang bsnya cuma pergi2 makan, pergi2 ntn...akhirnya gak gt bs kenal satu sama lain, cuma gendut, uang abis...Rasanya aku tersindir berat nih...

Selama ini cuma bs ke karaoke, ntn, main di arcade, makan2...tapi perkara ngobrol sptnya shallow banget...cuma ngobrolin hal2 yang terjadi di luar kami...beneran gak romantis...I wish these things could change...Mgkn hal spt ini bisa membuat hubungan menjadi datar sekali...spt temen saja, bahkan temen dkt pun bukan...krn kalo temen dkt kan harusnya bs bahas masalah2 yang lebih personal...

Note: ini cuman seberkas note untuk yang sudah pacaran maupun yang belum pacaran agar laen kali bs lebih hati2, dlm hal cari pasangan jg...lebih baik cari yang bs bener2 berembug dlm suka maupun duka...drpd yang dlm suka doang, atau dlm duka doang.

Currently feeling: thoughtful

I've been thinking...whether I'm meant to live a single life. I feel happier this way...I think I can be closer to God...can be closer to my friends and family...can be there for loved ones...Ko Tjel said...maybe I should think it over...if for a long long time I still think the same way, maybe it could be true...But he said I must be very careful in this matter...

Currently feeling: thoughtful